Grrr jus finish my commskills 2 resume and cover letter!!! Its all abt bragging and english.. wahahah quite hard though.. nv really thot of my skills and stuff yet.. erh got alot of assignments to do, basically my subjects all PBL.. so i'll be quite busy... clearing up shit.. but i tink still can manage it right now.. stuck at online commskills, ass. gonna do it tml or wut.. my final exams onli got 2 subjects!! yay! i had driving lesson jus now, had some problem with braking jus in time.. the instructor is abit cranky...

Spent xmas with my family... got alot of food, ham, and presents! yeah.. talk here and there with my aunties... so tired then i went to slp for quite long... until night.. no matter how much i slp, i still feel tired!!! play with the kids and game of life... wahahha.. not bad quite idiotic.. hmm.. gonna get fat after eating so many chocolates........

`up and down

Yes it's Christmas today. Ytd i woke up early to bake cookies with xinyi. oh man, this is my 2nd time.. the cookies 1st round went black.. wahahah.. inexperienced ok.. hmm later on it became a lil better and nicer.. after everything, we went orchard together.. i met up with the guys first, cos they passing me presents!! i got piglet and winnie the pooh! hee thanks alot! while waiting for crystal and nur, i walk ard far east with des and ate 2 plates of chicken rice.. Yummy! wahaha feel like vomitting after 1 hr... exchange gifts with crys and nancy..wahaha we were picking lots.. i feel very bad cos crystal got the 2nd soap frm me again!! heheh..

went with them for dinner, walk abit then met up with darling.. wahahaha i feel so idiotic.. lalala~ i was so sad the past few days... i got bluffed leh! but wahahha, i got a bottle of saga seeds from him.. so touched and very happy!! it's the best, becos no amt of money can buy this present from you and also ur love... :D then we went to squeeze in the streets for like hours, so hot and white things falling from everywhere... we like very sian... maybe shld go out in a grp more fun.. but the rest in church.. too many ppl already, so we went to siglap cafe cartel b4 heading to jin hui's house.. haha then we sing while walking, i tink we can join Idol 2.. i sing pretty well u noe..... can reach HIGH notes like the phantom... YEAH

slack ard and eat pizza with the grp.. and drink beer.. hmm i still prefer tiger beer and those sweet alcohol.. then we talk and talk.. and laugh!! sigh, i dunno how it will be like for nye... dunno wut to do yet!

`Merry jingles

xmas xmas... every year it's something i been waiting for to arrive.. mayb to some its jus another occassion, to some its the season of giving and receiving, but i suppose during this period of time everyone starts getting emotional and have the feeling of being unloved and lonely, stuff like tt? well well, ever since carlsberg used the song "Can't take my eyes off you" in their 2002 xmas ad, i'm always reminded of xmas.. to me, the ad is successful in reminding the audience, sth abt mktg comm.. hmm..

ok back to the being lonely part, those years i admit i do feel lonely and stuff.. but i spend the eve with my best frens and its really fun staying out at nite jus chilling ard.. 2002, wahahha xmas eve with des and drk.. playing pool at parkway.. then hang ard at the petrol station eating biscuits and chatting till morning.. i tink i onli knew them for a few mths.. wahahh sorry drk i laugh at ur curls alot tt time.. hey but its really gd time rite!! with ME! then last year with the grp, crystal and joey they all.. hahah.. at boat quay and raffles mrt.. still quite fun ah.. sitting by the grasslandsssss.. nonetheless at tt time, i did felt lonely, bo bian.. hahah typical lah.. so this yr, how will it be? oink oink oinks* we still havent decide wut to do yet..

will be exchanging gifts with the girls.. mayb buying sth affordable for the grp also.. and also for darling... still havent tink of sth for all of them.. few days left.. arghh. quite sad actually but i cant do anithing.. mayb i'm always paranoid, selfish, demanding.. anyway, its jus me showing my moodswings again.. i'm going adidas for my project after sch with xinyi.. GONE GONE GONE!

`intentions, i see them clear

watched National Treasure with darling on saturday.. very nice show, somehow it reminds me of amazing race.. haha.. wanted to watch Shutter one.. but dun hv.. oh yeah i went bugis to buy winnie the pooh hp chain.. hehehe!! saw many chocolates on sale.. feel like buying them! everywhere is on sale, i wanna do my last min shopping.. got many things to buy.. yay!! hmm i wish sg can be BIGger, cos its getting plain going to the same place again and again... the fun is wearing out.. wahh its so crowded in town, i like! except the part where i hv to squeeze to walk past...

`i hate my shoe size.

cheerios!! my new blog design is done by weiming, so i tink i said it many times but Thank You! wahahha well u all noe i like these characters alot, esp piglet and winnie the pooh.. so this webby is very very nice!!! hmm, also got the xmas mood over here.. hehe.. so cute and well done i dun tink i can do it if it was me..

i went over darling's hse during the holidays and tt time play poker i lost all within 20 mins leh, watch placebo dvd which is quite gd, slack ard and watch movie at midnite in princess. wahha i like tt cinema cos very little ppl and we can anyhow sit and eat.. hehe.. very enjoying.. lalaala~ so fun and nice jus the both of us oh! =D turned quite alot of toy story, darling wans the aliens, i got hamm and tt dinosaur.. got frozone also, but i wan jack jack.. ahhaha..

sch has started for abt one week, projs are coming and the term is very short.. tt means we mus hand in them in abt 2 mths time.. i quite like my grpmates.. nice ppl.. wahahah.. our class had a problem in grouping today, well... they can do anithing they wan but jus dun ever separate our grp!! been rather bad mood this few days yeah and easily irritated.. normal! i'll be fine again.. today skip my lect for the first time in this sem.. hahaha.. cant wait for the holidays to come again...........

`wish wish upon the stars!

sunday went flea market with darling.. bought 2 tofu blister packs and saw one set of winnie the pooh and friends figurines quite nice.. dunno buy or shldnt leh! so suay and blur today.. almost spoil the day, mayb yes.. haha.. i dunno why i'm so blur today.. caught fire when cooking, forgot to bring umbrella and hp... then to raffles watch the winnie phototaking thing, hahah so cute! too bad i din hv a camera at tt time! town to walk ard and meet darling's frens at party world.. ktv! din sing cos paiseh.. haha.. jus sit down and enjoy! ate brownie and chocolate cake and choco biscuits... i'm gonna be very very fat! but its delectable! wahahha... so shiok oh..!!!!

`to be with you, loving and forever..

i'm home alone again! my family went china jus today morning.. soo i mus do everything by myself and i'm very very lazy... woke up quite late and ate brunch ( breakfast cum lunch) haha.. there's really such a word ok! yeah so i watch tv cartoons and play comp all day long.. heheh darling and i love tofus! everybody wants to eat more Tofu Oyako CHOCO!! so cute and nice oh... watched SAW ytd, its really good and sick. its quite disturbing ah and the plot is one of the best i've ever seen, the movie is not dull at all.

wowwie~ ended my temp job sellin mp3 players on saturday.. the 2nd job in my whole life tt i can work more than 3 days.. wahahha.. overall ok lah, the supervisors really not perfect noe, each got their own weird personalities.. then sold quite a number of cheap ones.. cant wait to get my pay! then can start shopping and eating! heehe.. i finally bought the mickey mouse bag, at 1st i tot it was sold off.. there goes my 59 dollars. but i like it alot, the green is very nice... 2 weeks of holidays left for us, how??? holidays really great becos i can slp until afternoon.. hahha.. so many things i wanna buy.. but things like this we all noe are neverending one lah.. jus now went for basic theory lessons early in the morning with darling, 4 hrs ok.. then after tt went to bugis and town for the 1001th time of my life.. so tired now, feels like groggy...........

`the 3 grand essentials to happiness in life are something to do, something to love and something to hope for. (oinks_)

hell-o. had driving pract again on wed, sigh quite panicky again! the engine stalled for another few times.. wahahha.. i forgot to turn on signals when i'm turning, drove past the zebra crossing without stopping.. i'm a blur driver! die lah how?!! saw quite many sec schoolmates in cdc too.. i started work today selling mp3 players.. tis holidays i realise i suck at many things. like driving and selling things. i really dunno wut else i can say to persuade the customers. sigh gone money gone! i'll try to buck up.. nt bad ah the job, the boss is very gd.

ohh i like the olympus adverts alot! there's sth very close, very endearing abt it.. beautiful. and one of the songs was Mr Big's To Be With You. so nice!! cant wait for the job to end, so i can enjoy the last 2 weeks of my hols.. sigh. i still tink its very short.. not enough not enough! i wanna buy many things and play.. and sleep. here is:

Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you
Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

`i wish everyone is happy!

hmm, went to orchard again wahahha.. went there dunno how many times a week.. had my driving practical on thurs with darling.. wah really scary, becos i tink i am lousy at driving.. i dunno how to brake, and the worst part is i dare not accelerate much cos i'm scared... hahaha.. becos of me the car engine stalled quite a few times and brake quite hard until we jerked.. i tink the instructor quite terrified of the way i drive.. i'm so forgetful!! but i hope practice makes perfect.. watched shark tale ytd, its very gd and funny! wahaha, the underwater world they kinda relate it to the real world (eg mussel crowe, sushi shop).. there's some meaning in the show and its really funny.. very smart jokes. heheh lenny is cute.. the whole show's like very hip hop.. ahahahhaha. standing fishes.. oh yeah went to kembangan area to hv mee sua and soup! quite tasty! i like the pig's organs. very nice.. ahhh i love to sleep and eat!!!!

`wut the world needs now, is love, sweet love...

went out to bugis on tues with darling, drk and kr. hmm i feel like buying many things like tees, mini care bears and suddenly i feel like reading books again... i'll see how la.. sungei road was as usual many ah peks and uncles selling their things.. its my 2nd time there i tink.. then ytd celebrated desmond's bday at swensen's. met angie and crystal for a walk first.. the food is not bad... i wan potato wedges but no more!! heheh miss arab street's one... so nice with the sauce ok!! had lots of fun eating the food, but the ice cream wasn't tt great becos its too sweet.. Ring-a-ding-a-ling. wahahah!! afterwards after much wasting of time and talking, we decided to play pool at monstercue.. so long nv play already, abt 10 mths... hahah.. darling and me played!!! heheh.. first time we play pool together.. our skills NOT BAD oh!! lalala~ play awhile we go home already... yeappieEEE

`kuai le shi guang

its almost 3 weeks of holidays. been goin out almost everyday, except some days which i really jus feel like stayin home.. got back results, quite disappointed i din put in as much effort as i could, but still quite happy.. wonder how's timetable gonna be like next sem. i'm still hoping things go my way... i spend alot on food and i got not much cash left now!! i'm still lookin for a job. looks like 24 hrs a day is REALLY not enuf lahz.. boring, its the same old thing tt we do, i jus wish for sth fresh tt i can do or go to.... hahha.. i've got so many places i wanna go, but.. aiyah i dunno lah. jus irks me alot of things.. terrible. now i feel like taking chao yuan kuai che to somewhere else so i can relax my mind during the journey..

many things are unstoppable.. jus like u cant eat but look at the egg prices went up 7 times. 2046, altho i din really get it at first, but there's sth abt the show.. no one really noes where they are heading for, neither do I. mayb everyone's is self-centred to a certain extent, cos now i am feeling like nobody cares abt wut i am doing animore. and tt includes u u u and u. and still, its becos everyone's busy with their own stuff.. tt nobody bothers much. when will u ever be free? i still dunno.

i cant wait for the festive mood to come, i love xmas and new year celebrations every year with my friends.. hohoho. miss those days playin pool at parkway with the group!! becos it was really fun u noe.. arrgghh! those were one of my happiest days. we are so innocent and fun-loving. hahhaa... so nice!

`ni hui bu hui hao yi dian?

Exams over already! the last mktg paper was spot-on.. hahah the tips was very gd. hmm been goin out the past few days and worked on the weekends for banquet shit.. nt bad ah everyone except for the captain he's so manipulative and idiotic dogface. earn 66 bucks! dunno whether shld i continue working there... ytd went chinablack with the girls.. it can be boring it can be fun. starting it was fun but then later, i sian already.. drank cranberry vodka at 1st, then later keep drinkin fruit punch cos it was so nice. hooooho. free anyway. the clubbers there some wore like they cant wait to burst naked... buffalos. cant stand those men who go clubs jus to hook girls, bad guys to stay clear of becos they got pretty much nth gd in them and shallow u can see their intentions quite clearly. the most attention grabbing thing was the 2 girls crystal says they look like losers or was it posers? haha.. ahh drinkin fruit punch was enjoyable while i was thinkin abt darling most of the time wahahha... yay! can go collect my pay soon and enjoy my weekends together oh!!

`its holidays time!!!

2 papers over. Its a relief although i get the feeling i wun be doin quite well this time round.. OHHHh man it has been so goddamn tough to focus and tryin to memorise every word of those seemingly neverending notes..... sigh i noe i cant but i still hope for sth good of cos! partly due to the diminishing braincells of 18 yrs of education and too many distractions in me.. hmmph! i jus wish it can ALL be over with the snap of fingers.. bahhhhhhhh~ i got many many questions, many many doubts, i can onli say shit them.. (It's oh so quiet) been holding back, to reach out once and again when its all like a mirage we see on the roads on hot days.. and then i return empty handed, oh well, maybe with a basket of fruits from the mart :o during this time, i ask myself often, whether is it really there, by my side always, no matter what.. but haha forget it i'd rather dun care and be happy now becos i'm so exhausted, terrible and sour... anyway i tink i can take a backseat soon after exams, relax and yearn for a sunshine! back in my superultimately boring life...start planning for the hols! :0 i love my toys oh!!

`I finally found someone

我好怕，好怕，
会渐渐失去对你的感觉。
真的对不起。
太想你，因为常听不到你的存在，
心里好酸，也同时感到好寂寞，
我已经很累，很累了。。

btw, this is in chinese, go figure... my chinese a2 hor! but still lost to crystal. argh! wahaha well its mid-autumn festival. went to punggol park with crystal after my cds test. we were so happily waiting to eat orh chien, but it was closed!!! crappy. we had a nice long talk abt life abt men, abt ourselves.. the moon was kinda orangey yellow looming right in front of us and there were many kids, families walking ard with winnie the pooh lanterns! also got mini fireworks!! quite nice! too bad no tea and mooncakes! sigh both of us were lonely... i brought baby piglet and pooh out today by the pond. hahahah. miss touching them..

`中秋节快乐哦！

beautiful days beautiful nights,
wud they ever last longer,
than the dawn of light?

yes i thoroughly enjoyed myself with darling on saturday! crystal jade, movies, squeezed us dry. but i guess its sooo worth it. yeappie! so much happiness i feel, hard to say it out ok.. its been very great all these while, everyday. my best moments in life. yeah... but then again, good things nv last a lifetime.

`wut is it like, to feel like to be the saddest and yet the happiest one?

today din go sch and i stay at hme to complete my HRM. finally i'm done with it except for the mindmap, easy does it. haah.. went celebrating my belated bday with the groupie and tt includes crystal, nancy, des, drk, jinhui, jennifer, jerry and zhijun! shopped ard in tamp mall and played time crisis with crystal. ahh so long nv play had tt fun! later angie came and we went mad playin the putty thing. forgot! wahahha its so fun! hmm got a stussy racerback from the guys, thank u so much!! it's nice! we ate at chomp chomp, ahh the food is good! esp the oyster omelette ah... and the sugar cane. hmm. after tt slack ard at happy daze and we played lame games. special thanks to crystal! made us spent 1 hr plus cracking our brains, but i tink zhijun's had the worst time. wahahha. crystal and nancy bought me an apple pie cake thing yeah! thanks alot too girls! anyway i had fun oh!!!!!

`a BIG THANK YOU to everyone and also to darling, all of u who made my bday so sweet and nice.

Yay! Its my 18th bday!! Finally i feel tt bit of excitement and loads of happiness. HAHAHa. sorry but i cant help going gaga today. darling bought me a very nice bracelet with hearts! hee i was very surprised and blank.. again! oh well, i loved the moment he put it on for me.. so sweet! =D love u love u! and then i went mad..... keep laughing today because i'm so happy!! today jap lesson shigeta asked us abt bf and gf, so paiseh ok! but, its fine with me hohoho... jus wanna say thanks alot to those who wished me happy bday yeah.

`happy oh happy oh!*!*

my bday is coming soon oh.. but i dun really feel much of the excitement. mayb its like for 17 years bday is jus bday, celebrate and end of story. i'm getting bored. hahha. but still, i will be celebrating with the usual groupie as always. aigh there're somethings i regret doing, some tt i regret i din, life with chances and so little time for everybody, hw to balance. i cant please everybody, i wished i cud be happier, and so does everybody. yeah. went back to sch today for a 15 min test, really waste my time noe.. if nt i can slp longer! watched sex and the city, not bad and funny. the wut qiang shi jie show also damn nice, esp the xiaosheng and his girl. ahhh bullshit! whahaha. but NICE ah cos they're so sweet together!! hmm. i feel bad somehow.. real sorry yeah.. u're still the best ppl ard!

`my dreams to realise

Life can be like a rollercoaster ride or a Duckie Tour. i had my jap test ytd, so far shld be can pass.. after tt when to eat my favorite Ban Mee opp school, hahah but they got no eggs now!! i miss those days with eggs. taste nicer! went to lab with darling and frens.. i slack ard waiting for crystal and nancy so we can go orchard shopping! yeah walk ard the usual places.. later on we went to turn capsules hahahha! i got mickey mouse and flounder!! but my fave is still Piglet. i lost my bracelet on my way home... tis is the 2nd time, i'll nv find it again. wut to do? i'm so careless.. hahah. got warning letter for my mktg tut, but heck it since there's no tut animore... hmm. anyway we had some fun shopping. oh yeah stussy got some racerbacks which are rather nice.. BUT! no $$$. so hav to wait ah.. its like a one-sided thing u noe. u wan the thing, but the thing jus doesnt reach ur hands.. Hahah. once again, this world is bullshit, at times. jus like ME n my life

`i feel like laughing

i get dizzy easily and sleepy these days. I slp in the bus and whenever i wake up, i get dizzy. mayb its the stress. but ah, i dun tink so. cos compare me and other ppl, i really look as if i'm taking things very easy.. hmm exams are coming and it lasts for 3 days. heheh got breaks in between.. so gd! i cant wait for holidays to come! then i can slp until very very late everyday!! when will the NTH-to-do days come? there's so many things i hv to say and cant say. it's very hard for me to talk and nobody listens...

`If i ain't got you

not bad, this mid-sem i did quite well, lets hope can keep it up so tt dhl arrives faster.. HAHAa. yeappie today's my grandma bday.. she's a wonderful woman, very kind and nice.. cooks very good food and thoughtful, not money minded at all.. i din really get her a proper present but i bought a packet of sweets for her cos she likes to eat them.. hoho.. i realise i am not easily tired out these days.. too much food too much energy.

`the love of my life and our baobaos! =D

Sometimes, i wonder, abt many things, why i do certain things and why i dun. to trust myself or wut? wut happens when ppl ard behave so fake to u? or when u cant talk freely? i believe i'm not perfect, and i have overlooked some things in life... many times i've been ignorant, i chose to ignore, becos life's too much to handle tt i cant possibly pay every single detail to please everyone ard me... i admit i'm cant-be-bothered abt some things.. really. but i noe wuts impt to me and wuts not. all i can say is, Ren bu zhi chu fei ji mo wei and like wut Java tells me abt their outdated products: Any use of product on this page is at the sole discretion of the end user and Sun assumes no responsibility for any resulting problems (look at easily they push it away). It simply means that u can do wutever u wan, but pls dun blame me becos u are partly responsible for making that wonderful choice. Thank you.

`suddenly i feel moronic HAHA

It's a surprise how ppl, esp girls who seem Rather quiet and goody-2-shoes at 1st, actually is evil in disguise. Nth good and guys who tag along with them, aint anything gd Either. *YAWNS. pssst, these kinda ppl ah i realise, onli noe how to mumble and hide under their covers when they do sth. MUMBLES the Imbeciles. hmm, went swensens' and slack ard with crys and angie. talked alot of things, and all of us were kinda shocked. well, life. sumtimes one is good enuf, but then again, having the best of both worlds aint very bad either. i dunno ah cos its a pro-choice thing. i'm growing fatter each day i eat alot!! mus cut down already.. sumtimes i dun like my dad, he does really disrespectful things like throwing my things without asking me. i'm so pissed and sad. so, i shld keep things under lock and key, which can be very weird...

`Wen Rou

lalala, i'm so happy, the joy within me! i love darling and our baobaos! wahahhaha ;p yeap they are so cute cute cute cute if anybody dares to draw or kill them, i will spare none!!! my preciousssss! yoohoo my comp is done, lucky nt much things got deleted.. so yeah.. havent got back ANY test papers yet... wonder how my mktg paper is cos from wut the teacher say, it sounds rather dangerous.. like a 25 mark qns mayb gone anytime if ur concept is wrong. watched meet the parents and its quite a funny show.. wahahha gaylord focker. horrible name!! so when pam marries him, she'll become pam martha focker... martha's her middle name btw. cant wait for the holidays to come! this month will be a fast month i guess, with all the proj deadlines we'll all be rushing here and there....

`Loving you

sunday went to watch fireworks at esplanade, so many many ppl.. 5 mins, love the multiple shots part..yoo, so yeah the ndp fireworks was really great! nice n everything but i'm very sad. becos of miscommunication and i really dunno wut else more can i say being disappointed sometimes, me and darling cudnt watch the fireworks together...together!! it was really beautiful and we almost met up but halway thru it started already! argh. a lesson learnt..after tt we went geylang eat hokkien mee and rojak. charcoal fried noodles~! wahahah it was okok lah but the rojak was gd and crispy! saw alot of uncles hanging ard hahahha.. nt bad, it was interesting!

went alot of places with darling ytd..saw alot of new things! went hunting ard n exploring...hahaha lalala! had fun turning capsules cos very suay we got tinkerbelle for 4 times and 2 dalmatians...wahahhaha unlucky leh!! but nvm as long as we are happy rite?! so fun!~ if everyday is holiday!

`sweet sweet love love boo boo

My com is down and the laptop is terribly slow n idiotic. finally we can all say to hell with exams. sigh, overall it was ok, shld be able to make it through after studying so much.. shld!! exams period really is the most horrible times of my life and my moodswings jus had to come with it.. wasnt good for me and everybody else ard me. hmmm went to cut and dye my hair after cds exam. it wasnt very obvious n seems like i wasted a bit of money but! it doesnt look ugly too, so yeah...hahaha holidays has come. somehow nt very excited but yet i mus make try to make full use of it cos its onli 1 short week. this weekend's gonna be filled with pretty fireworks and hopefully, fun!

If nothing else i get to see you,
even if we never speak,
the harm of words is sometimes we dun
quite noe wut they really mean,
i dunno where,
i dunno how,
i dunno why,
but your love can make these things better

- these ordinary days

for u to ask to give, to receive and to payback, to forgive and forget. to climb up high and stitch ur promises, to go back down there and treat it like a broken cloth. to and fro, haste and chase, to succumb or to disbelieve... WORDS  

it's in ur hands. ur life either becomes a holiday or a chore u dread to complete. how dumb how imbeciles portray their characters on a banner too overpowering.. Hahaa. low-downs.. so yeah holidays are coming real soon, i'm planning alot of things tt i shld do. i miss late nights out and fun. lately, i guess i'm havin pms, i'm irritated easily, moodswings any moment. sighs. too much oestrogen. yippie.

`tugs and hugs!!!

Fri, Sat and Sun
the big event Baybeats 2004 at the esplanade was really nice! This the first time i ever been to a gig like this, the rock music was really gd to hear it LIVE, especially those by Love Me Butch, Buddhistson(indie rock!!), Surreal, Whence he came and Return to Fall... really eyeopening. lucky i went for all 3 days!!! shldn't be missed! yeah i admit there's alot of exotic ppl there esp the drummer & bassist from Buddhistson. somehow there's sth abt the way these ppl play music, very engrossing... the other bands was jus okok..and then ppl love to push ard in the pit, jus pushing.. hahah feel like joinin but! i'm a girl, i like abit of violence.. saw alot of ppl in weird costumes, hairstyles and the police was really idiotic. wahahah they kept walkin in out of the crowd.. wut a mess. overall, music was gd! learn alot of things, experience the NEVER. yeay mayb they shld hold more of this kinda events. i'm so happy!! =D Lalallala. gotta get back to projs again.. this comin sat i'm hving killer test. hmm i din regret coming to baybeats! altho my legs are lil pain now.. hahah
 
`i love booboo!!

jus finished doin my projs to be handed in this week. a very tired week, tryin to catch up on my lecture notes, highlighting and understanding them. i been skippin principles of mktg lect cos its too theoretical, and of cos, i can meet crystal and angie for lunch...thurs is my jap test. hmm treat it like a spelling test or sth ah, shld be can..and i nv like to study early cos i'm a last minute person, usually..tt explains why i forget most of the things after exams..the brain nv function perfectly. feel like going to the beach again, take the monorail, swim, suntan, and jus bask under the bright sunshine. when the seabreeze blows, u feel the beauty of a perfect day out..Haha. its always so hard to be together, u nv noe wut happens next, sumtimes u feel u hv been puttin in too much and begin to ask urself wut u do get in return, its time to relook becos u might hv misperceptions. its best to strike a balance,the same point to 2 hands to clap.it's nv a one-man show..hmm jrock, very good music but most of the bands are gone. tts life. i still remember I For You by luna sea and gd it sounded to me. ahh after hearin much abt Dir en grey, my fren finally send it to me. always remember i hv weird preferences.

`dir en grey - ain't afraid to die

so bored. everyday lessons jus end like tt.. got 2 projs up, i regret throwing away my POM and OB notes cos i really need them now! arghh! so idiotic. hahah i was so happy when i threw them away..now wut? heheh but seems my proj is fun. so yeah guess i'll like it better than last sem. lallala! bought a new bag! love it alot! =D alrite man i mus work hard this sem..yeeeaahh. too many good songs too gd..!

`drowning lessons

It's TGIF again. i tink twice, maybe not. one week passed rather fast, seen my new classmates, okok ah, had tutorials boring like nth..esp otcm, the teacher was talkin so freakin slow and moronic nonsense. listenin to her can kill.. biz fin tut today was crappy, my tutor is a high-pitched male, funny but cynical, and good in explanation. got my money for sellin csa bk, but din get money for BA. shld hv gotten but becos i tot sth, din get it for 5 bucks. not mine then tts it ah. so yeah. got the whole set of winnie rocking horses thanks to darling!! they're such cute babies! i miss vietnam fried noodles again. arghh. mayb like wut des says, its a barrier of trust we have to cross. sumtimes it's hard, very. to place ur full trust on people. to some, tis is jus a way to protect themselves frm being hurt deeply in case it really does happens. i'm beginnin to like jap, the way i love english. HAAA. its so fun playin with words! nt bad nt bad..not as boring as the 1st time. alrite.

`I'm taking my own life with wine, it helps you to rule out the sorrow, it helps me to empty my mind

yes yes i got a few more tofus and tigger!! i also got a Beauty, she's so pretty!!! went to the Gacha gacha thing with darling again. wahahah so many ppl grabbing those capsules, abit sad din went earlier, but anyway we got good stuffs! =p i got my 925 already, love it alot. been waiting for it so long cos dun hv my size, i noe i'm fat ok! yeah so quite a few things happen, decided nt to bother abt those retards and dogs. waste of time and everything esp when they dunno anything abt me. thinkin abt those things they say, it's freakin funny when u noe it's nt true at all. we stand firm yeah. sch tml, yawns.

`jealous of not havin frens who are retards???

Yeaahh. had jap class ytd n today. hmm, its kinda boring, but i wudn't mind learning sth really new except tt i detested pronouncing the japanese words as they made me feel like i'm still so young..shy shy!!! our jap teacher looks so cheerful and robust like she's gona burst. like wut they say, japs are very enthusiastic abt the things they do. wahahha. wutever! had some really idiotic introduction...weird.sigh, biz finance is a high failure rate subject.how? jus gotta slp lesser in lect like today..its so boring till i fell asleep within 10 mins. it's like econs and accts together ah, so yeah..anyway i will try my best to tackle it! hang ard in lab with nancy cos it seemed there's no otcm tut..nobody is there, too bad. had fun in lab cos i bid for piglet and i won it!!! hehehhe so happy and its soo cute!!! =p hmm many things begin to bother me again, u nv noe when i can shake them off twice. talk abt fears, they haunt. oh haha crys lemme do a quiz from her psycho bk, quite lame..but interesting....tml shall be shopping time!!!

`a new sentence: WATASHI WA COW DESU~

alrite my blog pic wasnt working, so i changed tt to this new one over here. erm, he's the pianist and drummer of x-japan, yoshiki. jus find him very very talented in music..love the way he plays the piano. erh yeah school started on monday, seen the newbies in canteen. hahah not really pretty or gdlooking, jus average new students. remember how dumbo we looked last yr. yeah tts it. fresh and plain boring. saw alot of familiar faces in sch, some acted so disgustingly like cockroaches. Hahaha. ate chicken chop!! kinda missed it, and yet after savouring it halfway, i stop. tinkin twice, it doesnt really taste tt well..applies to life sumtimes, doesn't it. my otcm dunnid go lect, onli got e-lect and tut. oh well, i like my timetable now. not PACKED. lalala!

`I'll be waiting for u, here inside my heart

yeah its thursday...so fast. sentosa seems like an hr ago. i'm still feelin the heat. i tried to tan but it kinda failed cos onli my hands and cheeks were red. sigh. but anyway i had alot of fun ytd with the group. tt is crystal, jennifer, jinhui, nancy, drk, desmond, jerry, kr, zhijun and cindy. waited for the guys for one hr. really quite idiotic!! we played monkey in the sea, swim abit cos i din swim for 2 yrs...hee. i really love swimming!! suntan awhile, then play vball and captain's ball. i realise i dun hv much stamina cos i do those things awhile then my muscles ache! crystal says i'm like tofu..wahaha..the waves were great, we had fun being swept to shore! took sum pics and buried crystal in sand..she enjoyed it i guess..haha. hmm i still like to dip in the water!! so refreshing altho its very salty.. splash water on each other..laugh alot and enjoyed ourselves! hmm took monorail, i feel so gd cos its slow. finally a rest for us. after tat went 85 eat and went home so tired. alot of things went thru my mind tt day, too many wut ifs....stayed at hme today, supposed to go out but my whole body pain, got abit of sunburn here and there. i love the sleeping beanies cos i can put them beside me to sleep... they're jus so adorable and cute!

`it's hard being part of destiny's manipulation, u get tortured for a lifetime...

one week left to new sch term..sigh! its sunday once again. ytd went serangoon gardens with crystal and angie to chill out and talk. wahahha the calamari with tartar sauce very nice!! yeah we enjoyed ourselves then later went to eat at chomp chomp. it's been so long since we hang out together. crystal makes a good cook..hahah. saturday went out with darling, drk, yilin, kr, and raymond. went to smoke seesha with them. yeah i like the apple one..can go home late cos my parents not in sg! wahahha. heheh i receive the eeyore rocking horse already!! so cute!!! suntec got the Gacha Gacha Gala exhi which started on 11..wasted i din go on the 1st day!! nvm i shall go tml see if i can go turn sth nice out!

`lalala...

everyday is the same! but it's quite alrite with me cos remember i got nice tv shows straight from 7pm to 11 plus. hahah in the day i'll be playing comp if i din go out..yeah i really like the channel 8 shows. VERY nice in a way it relates to the life in singapore and the way ppl live their life frugal or spendthrift, happy or sad, optimistic or pessimistic. a simple life i realise is the best and easiest to live..like mine!! sometimes u wud feel better when u dun worry abt unnecessary things or try to predict wut will happen..it's a headache. mus take a break once awhile so jus be simple and happy!!

`Nian zhe ni mei yi ye, Li Bu Kai Ni

yeay!! finally changed my blogskin! hehhe. so sick now sigh so cant go anywhere. holidays left with a few weeks more so i've decided to make very good use of it. still thinking yeah?! lalala music always make my day. i wanna eat the meiji choc with grape inside...haha. hmm, i also want to shop!! lucky got gd shows almost every at 7, 9 and 10pm tts why i can watch when i'm at home.. yeeaaaahhh! ;p

`i wan somebody to share, share the rest of my life, share my innermost tots, noe my initmate details...

sick sick sick. i've got RASHES and sore throat! so yeah most likely i'll be stayin at home for the next few days...hahahaaaa. Boring. i'm packin my stuff to kill time, realise i got alot of crap. my pri sch library card, flintstones' phonecard and my name tag..heheh. alrite, i wanna SHOP!!! my parents goin genting soon, so yeah i'll be having freedom for 2 days...hiak hiak

`mary had a little lamb

So bored and sick. everyone's out but i've been staying at home for 3 days. i'm goin out later no matter wut! it's like i'm-all-alone days. Spongebob to the rescue!!
not unless u prove u're a many times better and nicer...HAHAHA...

Oh the first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met
And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get
I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand
An assault my defenses systematically failed to withstand

Cuz you came at a time
When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
Was the be-all and end-all
Love is only a feeling
Drifting away
When I'm in your arms I start believing
It's here to stay
But love is only a feeling
Anyway

The state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved
I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed

That the light of my life
Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
Just to beam on you and I

Love is only a feeling
Drifting away
When I'm in your arms I start believing
It's here to stay
But love is only a feeling
Anyway, anyway

Love is only a feeling
Drifting away
And we've got to stop ourselves believing
It's here to stay
Cuz love is only a feeling
Anyway.

`Because It ain't Sweet anymore

hmm. Friday: went out with darling to shop! he bought a tee and i got a racerback for myself too..yeay!! its the greaaat singapore sales and there was a disney exhibition in taka. hahaha. we ate yoshinoya again! its value for money and nice..watched shrek for onli one hr cos we remembered the wrong timing...hoho!! it was a really nice show, i wished it was longer! puss in boots is soo cute!! hehee.

Saturday: crystal jade to celebrate my mum's bday. i ate alot alot becos the food is jus so JADED. very nice!

`eels - i need some sleep

rainy day

its the 2nd time of the week i've been to orchard...yay! i cant wait for the Great Singapore Sales and the disney exhi!!! they're coming soon! hehhe.. i am gonna be broke soon cos i'm always out...eating and eating...how? mayb i shld work, but y'all noe me well enough tt i dun last more than 3 days in my jobs except for tuition... *yawns. so yeah becos of GSS, i plan to spend more money on things...and maybe withdraw money out, since it can be EARNED back one day rite? yeah yeah i got many things on my mind rite now..insufficient money is a Big Problem. i found out abt posting pics from leenie's blog..look at eeyore and piglet!! so cute!!!



`wishin' and hopin'

had a really great day of bbqing with my classmates today. heheh lucky the weather was good to us..no rain! there was some little girl and sweet corn thing, apple's dog called zhuzhu which is so cute!, the coconut men, and perfect food. we had really nice time laughing together..later eileen and junhao came..i went to the playground with leen, junhao and joey. we played the spiderweb and joey self proclaim a spiderman..hmm.. then later we sat on this satellite thingy n its really very interesting! we go upside down like a mini rollercoaster. yeah we went 360 round..wahahhaha we laugh and scream like morons. this is reliving our childhood u noe...yay yay! i ate alot of chicken wings....how?! gonna be fat already, mus walk more!

`we all love surprises.

stoned

little by little u're there. yeah yeah.

from the simplest actions showered upon,
darkness was heading for the brighter days,
cascading tears were just a part of past,
every inch and every corner,
fits perfectly of your words to my heart,
so perfectly they mended no one else could ever replace,
so tightly i held onto them that nothing would be better,
and in light of all the care you have shown, my dear friend,
i'm always here.

`i saw no reaching hands to pull me up in my dreaded moments.

dint go out today at all..stayed at hme with a swollen eye watching starsky and hutch, love hina and chatting online..i damn love that guy huggy in the show. tall, cool, aloof but resourceful in some ways. Nobody touches huggy. and he said sth really interesting. here goes: to err is human, to forgive is divine. hmm..nt bad a day anyway, i enjoy chilling out at hme..dunnid to care abt anything...slp, eat, watch videos. yeahh..food kept me awake all day!! Hahaha...

`february stars

goodie

finally tt irritating supp paper is over! can pass ah hopefully! yeah i din blog for the past few days becos i stayed outside. hoho. watched van helsing with darling and his frens.. orchard, i tink i'm always going there no matter what..went to my sis chalet, knew some of her frens, realised some of them are really funny and cute. played mj with them and crystal, argh not once i won ok...after tt went to meet angie and her frens..hang ard in bugis then i went home in the morning. studied my mbs on monday, was supposed to meet drk and crystal study together, but i had a gastric problem tts really bugging me. argh!

so jus now i went to watch troy too. weird show, but brad pitt was great in it. hahhaa. every single scene he appeared. lala. we smuggled titbits into the cinema. one box of chicken biscuits made my bag looks as if its exploding. too small! yay took some picture cards.. okayy i noe its lame, but its cool. wahahhaha..i did had a good time anyway!

*yawns nth much. holidays jus prove to be so boring sometimes.

`waiting for the Great Singapore Sales.....

spaced

wutever it is, its nth. i'm like a mute, sumtimes i feel i'm blind. words nv heard, actions overlooked, i mus hv missed out the good things in life tt hardly seem to cross my path. i dun wan a lonely road without bumps cos all i've been waiting in my life is one with roadblocks, with juice, and zest to make it hot enough to cool down later on. i want an exit if it aint all tt i've want in the first place. such a depriving life, i bet no one ever feels satisfied. not me...i'm not happy with many many things, there's nth i can do with my limits, life is failing me. everyone is. i feel like a bird without a tree. all tt i've desired is no longer here......i guess i'll still need sth.

`piercing thru, the thorns nailed onto me.

okayyy, had a great time earlier on today. went for breakfast at hm, then serangoon gardens, then to pasir ris beach. very great altho i was slpy. yeah lah jus fun playin ard and talking with my best frens. and now at this goddamn time, i'm so fuckin bored. too bad i noe. so yeah anyway i'm gonna temporary end this shit when weekends come. ha. tt means going out and i hv damn gd reasons so i dunnid to go home! mus make use ah cos its a one in a million chance for me. better than stoning infront of the com, boredom staring right straight at me, all i can do is to type and type non stop...chatting with frens and frens is interesting yeah. but still....forget it, i'm very pissed off when i'm bored.wutever lah huh. yawns*

`sorry but i hate every single night like this.

Mayday, i love

ok i've been listening to their songs and a few others these few days. i like them alot. wahhh. they're really talented. definitely better than 5566 or f4, which i find quite shallow in their songs. its like a puddle of clearwater, u see it, u noe there's nth much u can explore further..lalala. went to many places today with darling.. yeah i had a gd time, but the weather is jus too hot. walked ard walked ard. no more tofus and rockin horses toy!!!!! ah how?!!! cute things always are snapped up so fast. it was jus last week i got one. its gone. and i saw a slping piglet! heheh so cutee!! hmmm.maybe one day sg shld try to reclaim MORE LANd. its beginning to bore me, really. maybe sg shld try to build new recreational stuff. rather than hdb flats, more hdbs, and MORE. maybe they shld build a big big swimming pool, where everyone can squeeeze and splatter ard in floats, trunks, wutever! sigh how dampening sg is at such.

`life sized mirror

salute to another boring day.

wutever. i gt back results today, failed mbs. the rest was alrite with me. sigh guess i'm gonna waste stupid shit time revising again. yes yes, its boring i noe. was supposed to go clubbin at nite but i aint no money...hmm.spent my whole day on net and watching tv shows, not bad ah. i wudnt say its a worthless day... next week is kinda ruined becos i have to study abit for mbs. can anyone make it any better? we 05 peeps seem to hv fell for it except for a few. wahahaa. yeah yeah. u do realise sometimes, time makes a fool out of us. we go chasing against time, we try to be on time, we race, its a cycle which along the way, we miss things out. it's very true tt smths are nt meant to be, there's nth much we can do, neither can we try to reverse the past again. so yeah, move on with life, remember we nv shld nv try to live in the past. why not learn from it? hey tts wut i feel, if u dun agree, fine with me. waHAHHAHA. somebody saveeee me, i'm dyin of boredom. tt day i was walkin ard, and i saw alot alot of those big big soft toys, i got the urge to carry some home, hug it or share it with my lil bro n sis. hohohoohoho.

salute to the end of a boring day and the start of a new one.

`rose garden, i live it in my dreams.

my eyes are red, cheeks are burnin red, smelt of cig smoke, smelt of alcohol. yes, i went drinking at planet paradigm with crystal, angie, john and some other ppl whom i dun really noe... its been 1000 years since i've drank. and i'm really really craving for it becos i'm craving for it when i dun feel good. at 1st we went shopping for bikinis and stuff. hahah i bought a skirt!!! geez. we ate vietnamese food and its really superb!!! i totally lovee it! paradigm is a gd place to chill out yeah and we played 5,10,15. arghh its my first time playing, but not bad cos i forfeit lesser times than angie!! hiak hiak.. ahhh, tat drink we had was nice and sweet. sigh.

`one day u wake up to find u losing urself.

Love is nv a bed of roses. yeah, after reading her blog, feel kinda sad for her, i bet she aint taking it too easy too...i jus wish she can look on the brighter side and move on...ytd i was readin an article talkin abt stealth bombers. i tot it might be abt some terrorist crap.. why not i jus paste the stupid link here cos there's really alot more..

Beware stealth bombers

it's rather interesting cos it really sorted out my mind, i guess i nv knew abt such things in the past. i'm learning ok?! there's many things i wanna learn too. like cooking, baking cookies, guitars, drums, ice-skate and rollerblade properly without falling!! erh yeah these few nites i been huggin tat toy cow to slp cos its cute cute :p and huggable! its hairy, black and white....

`The flowers should always, always, outnumber the thorns.

3 is a cursed number.
lookin at how things are revolving ard my frens, yeah i guess i hated this number since i was in sec 3. it's the most unlucky number and if u are somehow related to 3 or wutever, pray tt u get out of it. there's a couple of reasons why i hated 3:
- life sucks in sec 3.
- 3 is always a dread in the journey of love.
- i gt into a minor accident in bus 3.
- reg number 23 is often called by teacher in school.
now u see it? i got alot alot of thoughts i wanna say today... but guess its too longwinded so i'll jus concentrate on the number 3 first. and look, its may 3... maybe 3 is a jinx to me. no i'm not superstitious... but becos it is always the reason why things suddenly go haywire in my life... how to get past 3? mus try hard....

`3 days: 3 weeks: 3 years.

erm. its saturday. its supposed to be a usual hangout day with frens, eating and catchin a movie day. but, it isnt. went to trim my eyebrows. hey despite the pain, at least it looks much neater rite?! yeah yeah saw alot of ppl with funny and eyeopening dressing, wonder wuts wrong with them. they are either PINK top to toe or too much spare tyres tumbling out their tight tops. hmm. freak them. so later walk ard orchard, realised i been here so many times.

boring.
met drk and kr to hang out awhile, its tickles me always to hear wut they are talkin abt. wahahaa. not long later, i went home. yawns. its so weird to be home so early at 11. next week, mayb i shld stay out for a nite, mayb i shld do some exercise. i look at bikinis, and i look at myself. sigh. wahahha cant imagine myself in tt really. alrite, to kill time, i play tic tac toe on msn. it gets boring after awhile.. so chatting is still the best. there's always fresh things coming in. yippee!

`flowers in the window

hmm it was raining jus now..geez spoil the mood but pigging out at ajisen on a rainy day was rather cosy...the hot ramen and stuff. Ahhhhh. eheh i bought a top jus now. in the end onli 3 of us, angie din come!! hahah called her so many times still no reply. but nvm ah, still got many chances to go out together during the hols. altho it wasnt as lively, but we managed to crap a lil abt some marriage stuff and the "door gifts". how GREAT. wahahah..normal things we chat abt yeah..when u hv nth to do, its like a life without an aim. holidays.....bikinis, anyone?

`osama bin laden has farty pants.

third day of holidays.
1st day: slack at home. almost stoned to death, but i had southpark to make it better.
2nd day: had a haircut, went out with darling to bugis, watched 50 first dates. it was real nice and funny. i tink rob schneider is great at acting. wahahaa. the animals in the show are damn cute too!!! esp the baby penguin!! geez. adam sandler really had great patience with drew barrymore, in any case he was sweet to do so much for her daily amnesia. haha.
3rd day: i'm going out to orchard later with the girls. yay!!! its been so long since we hang out together, the 4 of us. angie, crystal, nancy and me! shopping! really miss those days we sit together and talk abt corny or horny things...wahahhahaa.

a lil friction often make me realise how impt things are to me, how much i cant lose them, how much an impact they hv made in my life. it made me even more treasure frens, those who are there when i was down and out or lonely.. i wasn't feelin good abt many things these days. i feel guilty becos i was wrong and yet my grandma was still so gd to me.. nt really becos of the money, but becos she was there consoling when i felt my parents were so unfair to me and stuff. up till now, i was late very late for dinner, she smiled and even prepared the food for me.. really gotta thank her alot all these years. and it made me wonder if i was being filial towards her these while.. no i wasnt. so i decided i had to go visit every sunday..even for awhile. in life, things nv last forever, memories can flashback anytime, triggered but often, things nv stay the same either. ppl come and go, feelings grow and fade, forgive and forget, things always come in a pair. who's gonna lend a hand to pull us thru the walk in life of shit. i'm jus a nothing, not pretty, not cute, not a gold, not a jewel, jus a stepping stone to escape from sth.

`holidays. i shld jus hv fun. believe me i will.

guess wut? it's the last paper todae! been studying the whole day but still feeling i will forget sth later..wut the hell. but tell u guys sth: when a person is young like 12- 16 of age, their memory usually is at their optimum.. however, this memory will start to fail as they reach 18.. u will realise how come u can remember piles and piles of books during o lvls but now? a few lect notes is enough to kill ur brain cells. sigh. gotta admit i'm old. so guys, u're not alone if u tink u hv brain lag. currently listening to vonda shepard's baby don't u break my heart slow. i first heard this song in sec 1 when my fren intro it to me. its quite a nice song the lyrics and stuff. wish me luck in my exams ah!!!

`nightwish - walking in the air

thinking back, there's somethings worth celebrating, somethings worth mourning abt. things like i am left with one more paper to go is gd but a high chance of getting a supp paper is jus vrrooom. heehe, time passes quite fast, exams are gonna be over!! rejoice ppl! hmmm, i realise tt frens are extremely impt in our lives, how much they change our lives, how they lend us helping hands when we need them. frens might seem far away from u sometimes, but there's one thing we mus nv forget: they are always here for us. hohoho sounds like some preacher?! yeah yeah. okayyy i cant wait for the holidays!!! Lalalala! maybe i shall go do some outdoor activities like beachgoing, rollerblading, cycling, blah blah.. hehhe. ta-da~

`dun be afraid to come, cos i will always be willing to give a hand.

study again. how boring. hang ard in sdc, did my a/cs and abit of stats. ate alot of lays' chips cos its really damn nice. haha tt filled my tummy till jus now. can save money this way, nt bad... wut makes a day? good weather, laughter, joy. oh btw its good and healthy to kiss and hug everyday, according to CLEO and some girly mags. hahha sumtimes i look back and think, i kinda agree with it. in this fast-paced life, most are deprived of love and stuff.. so yeah, aiyah i dunno wut to say... heheh. lou lou skip to my lou, lou lou skip to my lou, lou lou skip to my lou, skip to my lou my darling. this is my favorite childhood song... i really love to sing nursery rhymes when i was young.. abit lame but in any case, it filled my life knowing i had music to listen to. plus! i noe how to use the cd player.. okayys.

`mad about you

yes i'm home. sorry guys for giving a black face earlier on cos i was feeling real tough. too tired i was almost on the verge of breakdown and tears. partly becos of the upcoming killer - exams. sigh. very sorry. i guess i was at fault. truly. and i shldnt hv let my emotions rule the head. geez, accts is so damn tedious. but i noe everything's gonna be alrite. hope so! have faith and perseverance in urself, dun get affected too badly by trivial matters. this will bring u peace and success faster than u tot. maybe....

`i do, cherish u...

grr. been studyin in school lately. so if i'm nt online often, tts the reason. i guess im sick of internet. for more than one yr and counting, i ve been online almost every single day. up till the extent i rather go hungry without dinner cos i wanna chat online.. sigh! exams are coming, yet i dun seem to be absorbing anything much. coool. everyday u wud be living ur life, thinking wut will happen tml, wut obstacles are gonna block ur way to being happy. coping with ur daily stress, mayb we shld try to relax. let loose but dun let go. okayyy its cliche, but still mus remind myself! after exams, how's life gonna be? slack ards, eat, slp, comp, shop. tinking of hols, i miss the 7mths one. eat, stay out late, pool at parkway, slp. ok switch back! the awakening of the semester exams! kk must make it, lets work hard.

`cud i take ur hand and let the wind take us where it stops, till then we'll settle like the sands in the storm, search the place we belong to and leave the sickening world behind?

Counting the days on the calendar
Strange how they bleed into each other
All that I need
Is a day with you
Pencil me in on your Saturday
Taking my leave
Should I be waylaid please wait for me

On a day with you
Maybe for now an hour will do
Remember my dear this time last year
The sunsets were late and the days were long
And the nights were filled with song
The nights were filled with song

Strolling the street we're strangely complete
Let's stay awake till the morning comes
We don't need anyone
We don't need anyone

Wasting my life at the traffic lights
Getting nowhere
Trapped in the turnstiles
Stay within reach
Of a day with you
Maybe for now and hour will do

erh yeah. after today's lect i realised stats is actually an interesting subject. true true, mind boggling, its cool. btw, my recent cravings are coffee and campbell soup. dunno wut the hell is wrong, but i smuggled a cup of mocca into lect jus now, tinking it cud keep me awake. It din work, sadly. hohoho it smells really nice. got cds quiz earlier on, pray i at least get a desirable grade. gd friday is here, gd tt it is a holiday. i tink the creators and those smartasses who cre8 southpark are really creative and really noes how to make a corny story out of sth. hahah. hmm. oh yeah poor drk kana suaned by young boy, how sad can it be?! wahhaha, buck up man! now as i'm typing i'm fallin aslp.... this is gloomy bear. it's evil. dun be deceived by pink color, girls. watch out for it. lalallalalalalalalala. and tofu oyako!!

hmmm. its quite obvious i've been feeling terrible these days due to occasional moodswing syndrome (bet some of u dunno this except my chums, haha). i cant help it ok... i get irritated at the slightest shit i encounter, everyone who says things i jus put on my cant-be-bothered face or i get sulky rather often. a very sincere apology to my dearest frens who find me disgusting recently...... very sorry. like i said, i cant help it. i really need to vent it cos i cant contain it anymore. i need to WHINE. sigh! oh yea today i went to turn the tofu! i got the mother!! this crystal gt the spy!!! wahaha ok she very lucky cos she's been wanting it and complaining. cheerios! again, i been tinking abt the hols. alrite, 1 yr pass really damn fast. i seriously hope this yr is a gd year for me, everything had better go smoother. a new hope! here's an analogy i tot of suddenly: Feelings is/are like a business cycle, it has its ups and downs, fluctuations with the passing of time. too much of econs lah. huuhuu.

`anticipation really kills.

so yes, bloggin is boring when u hv nth to blog. time passes very fast when u're hving fun. time passes fast when u're busy. i really hope this period's gonna pass over soon, cos i'm like in a stage neither can i move nor do i wish to stay. its the period before exams and post exams. of cos, wut i am ultimately waiting for is holidays. hmm. everything will jus fade off with time. like my stupid keyboard and floppy drive, jus when i needed them so badly. how TIMELY. i guess things dun often go our way. argh! i've been thinking, abt many things, like how to really enjoy my holidays and blah blah. still wondering. here goes:
1) do a whole body pampering of scrubs and facials.
2) slp and eat.
3) eat and slp.
4) hanging out ard with my chums
5) shopping.
6) still shopping n saving.
7) back to eating and slping.
8) read books, mags, comics
9) backup my com.
10) tidy my room.
11) indulgences in snapping pics of the city at night.
12) stayovers
13) watch cartoons. esp spongebob. movies too. love midnight movies. hahah.
14) trim and maybe redye my hair.
15) exercise.
16) try to whip up some nice food besides spaghetti and eggs.
17) and wut else? mayb wave gd bye to holidays and my freshmen yr. sigh.

`contained and stagnant, who's trapped like the man in the cell?

silent sigh. lalala. i feel like a complete idiot today. its April's Fool. awww, so frens started fooling me in the morning till now. the worst was the cds quiz joke. grrR. nvm. its such a long day, i mean real long. life's a rollercoaster. yawns. presentation was not bad. our class had real gd laughs at the roleplays and we took pics! tis is the onli time in the whole semester i really felt some bonding in our class. i mean REALLy. yes.

`Crimson dawn.

ok i'm attracted to egyptian tales and history. especially discovery channel with the showing of Valley of the Kings. really damn cool. heard they say King Tut's tomb is cursed. the great archaelogical sites with underground tunnels leading to the burial place in the pyramids filled with gold, gems and valuable items. the pharoahs are fascinating with their faces and the mummified kings. the egyptian gods and myths are equally fascinating.

`Suchos - God of the Sacred Nile

upcoming projects, presentations and accounting test are driving me a lil off my sanity. urgh. why chinablack always so crowded? ever since they renovated, i nv been in there. maybe when i'm 18 then come and think abt it. its still freaking early to sept. so yeah. lalalala. so damn tired. today morning i went back to old hse area for breakfast with my family. really miss the childhood i had there. every sunday mornings without fail, we wud head to the market for breakfast meals. how nice. later on went to pay respects to my great grandmother. i jsu realised she came from guangdong and many dead ppl came from the same place: China. some of them died in the early 1920s, 1942 during the war. jus hits me in the head, tt life can end one day, whether u are happy or not. i like tofu alot i realised, and the winnie keychains. been searching for it today but no more. still got one more shop selling that ah, so in the meanwhile, i can save up money first.

`try to measure infinity in the palm of ur hands.

hmm to start off wif sth interesting, a bisexual wanted to hitch our fren desmond. isn't this a big news? so yeah ur life proves to be as interesting as ours.. imagine tt. hahaha.. okok i shall stop laughing. so back to today, i skipped lessons. anyway 2 hrs, i tink wun die. i rather stay at hme than to go to school with tat sickly look. no mcs also..so yeah i pray wun get warning letter. too many undones ever since things happen so wrongly from last yr till now, tt walk alone across the highway proved to be a nice feeling. at nite, when the wind was blowing, cars speeding, the bright lights shone. perfect. oh i was quite blur ytd, i took bus 3 from tamp with crystal. she dropped off first and then when i reach my previous sch i alighted. guess wut bus was i waiting for? BUS 3. wth was i doing?! i waited for the bus as long as i waited for love. freaking long, so in the end i took 89. im already on track and yet i screwed up, trying to wait for the same bus which nv seem to arrive. okok say i'm stupid. but, where are u, my precious?

`Running - No Doubt

its hard. now i finally realised how life cud be so hard for everyone on earth. we struggle to survive, to be the strongest, and constantly we are chasing behind time. time controlled us. shldn't it be the other way round? we rush to be on time, rush to do everything until we forget abt the important things and ppl ard us. yes i admit when i'm busy, i tend to forget.. i waste my time finishing projs, missing on chilling out which i thoroughly enjoy doing so.. i am too tired. sumtimes i jus dun wish to carry on animore. but studying in school proved to be a lil better anyway..i been slping in class and lectures..so i mus slp early nowadays.. look fresh going to school. wuts its like to be in love? wuts its like to be loved? and wuts it like to feel? tt time i read in a mag, they say its easier to fall in love than to stay in love. i tink its quite true, with ppl strayin to having affairs and two-timing. it happens.

yeah peeps. tml going school damn early to print out my projs last minute..how sick. hahah. jus came home from dinner at tamp. slacked ard, ate at cafe cartel with crystal, yy and nicky. yummy i ate waffles, again. i was coughing like an idiot, i dunno why. maybe weather cold. haha..i laughed alot with crystal at stupid things. walked ard blah blah.. so yeah.. hohoho! sat i went to buy a bag and pants..100 gone...this week i'm gonna save up again..tts where i get my money from..not eating alot. smart rite..otherwise, im jus a poor bloke. sumtimes spending money on impulse is known as retail therapy. jus like i crave for ice cream or alcohol during moodswings. ok i noe its abit psychotic.... hmm my hse not cosy enough for me... next time my hse mus be cosy and neat..

`very very tired.

had macroecons lect. did mbs proj in lab, beggin ppl to help. yes they did, and really thank you guys!! left abit onli so i am gonna finish it up..get done with it. later on arab street again..as usual i'm underage so i cant smoke shee sha. so i can onli look. waited for crystal and ate up my teddy biscuits!! left abit!! hahaha..cos i was damn hungry..slacked ard with crystal, yeeyong, nicky and raymond at esplanade..again, tat place is damn nice and gd place to chill out n talk. oh yeah!! b4 tt we went to this place call parkview sth near raffles hospital...dark, nice, seems ancient.. fascinated me a whole damn lot.. gd dating place, i figured. hahha. met some frens downstairs at the coffeeshop, nv see them quite long, i tink they almost fainted when they saw me. thanks to my sis, all of them waited there jus for my grand appearance. haha..wut an honor..ah crap.

`nobody noes wuts gonna happen

love is a beautiful thing. many yearn for one. we've all been stuck in the fellowship. if u are close to me, u will noe wuts it abt. hahaha. wahahha i'm tired, coughin like a stupid horse with itchy throat. i'm late jus now for school cos i sashayed ard damn slow. took a long time to dress up n i forgot my bracelets and things. geez, u noe i feel incomplete without them. my hands are empty. the rain is falling, imagine tt scene. i guess it will be sweet.

`ever fallen in love

Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I'm falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love

Running, running
As fast as we can
I really hope you make it
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated

Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up

- Running by No Doubt

hmm..today was a damn tired day..restarted my mbs proj, went to accts lect, hang ard in sch then later kana mayo by william hung! so suay..wahahhaa..then later watch the butterfly effect again with a grp of frens plus dearest crystal wanna watch..hahha i am so gd to my frens rite..saw eileen working and chitchat awhile..hahaha. u owe me a muffin! hmm..during the movie i keep making alot of shitty comments and singing song..irritated crystal until she ask me to shut up..at least i didnt scream..wahaha..seriously i love salty popcorn. dunno why but i dun like sweet ones..moooo.

`cos baby sometimes love jus aint enough.

Heya! Today's been a boring day.. supposed to watch movie with the gang, but then desmond and jinhui cant make it..so its onli me,drk and jerry. we 3 loners of the day..went to shop ard with drk first..bought a fcuk tee for 60 bucks..aiyah heck care cos i really like it anyway..wahhaha..wanted to buy more tees and jeans but then no nice one..so no luck..yawn* gone to lido to buy tix for The Butterfly Effect.. we waited for jerry noe, and he's always late..so went in watch 1st lah..damn nice, a lil violent and psychopath kinda show..jerry came in rather late...with his packet of food which contains fries, popcorn chicken and sth else i dunno..wahahha..not bad still got food..so later on went home liao..haiya i wanna buy more clothess....!

Oh yeah today went to school for econs onli..then slack ard in canteen..one reason why i bought the biscuits was to help me curb my craving for the school's chicken chop..so yea i didn eat and munched on those biscuits instead lahz..went home for a nice nap..ahhh so shiok..then later went to orchard wif crystal to meet some frens..b4 heading to arab street.hmmm tat place was uber dark and a lil creepy..hahha..i was damn hungry and it kinda contributed to my mood also. a hungry person is angry. yeah..oh well, tasted those potato wedges and its yummy!! heheh..hear them talk talk while i smell the shee sha smoke..very sweet. then i feel very tired also..yawns!*

`i jus had to realise time jus had to pass like tt, how cruel.

Hmm..this week passed rather fast..swoosh its friday tml...yay!! for the past dunno how many years of school life, weekends have always been sth i've been lookin forward to. time to joy, time to shop, time to have fun...everything tt we call enjoyment. oh well, today waited a whole day jus for my env sci tut...did my test on mangroves, how lame is tt. b4 tt slack ard like a dead snail in biz park. watched ppl come and go. earlier on had stats lect and then halfway rush to choose my cds for next sem. i dun tink i will get jap..geez..cos everyone seems to have already signed up b4 i did..so, lets pray i get sth best for me, and quite slack. i hate to have crampy timetables, no time to relax and chill. i really damn it. but then, let's jus wait in the meantime! for the 1st time in my whole life, i stepped into bedok reservoir. yeah greattt...~ quiet and serene, but also filled with cigg smoke. okok..bought my teddy graham biscuits again and alot of my frens complained it looks like dog food. saddd. wahahah but its really nice with tt honey smell..so i dun care if its for dog anot.

`It stands alone recently..

erm...many things hv happened...wut shld i say? or how shld i put it? damn. why shld i bother wif sum one who dun even noe my age when we were together. why why why. it jus shows he's sum1 not worth my time n i noe. but i cant help myself. quite sad when he told me tt. he's gonna be away soon... dunno wut to say also..kinda attracted to his giggles. but anyway life's still goin on fine. ytd went out with the guys, wanted to watch rollypolly..but then tix are out! so sorry!! i din mean to..oh btw i bought a tee..looks comic and its 40 bucks.haah..i also got a free jacket outta nowhere..yea lol. slacked in cafe cartel at ps..ate the yummy waffle b4 walkin abit and going home..yawns.i wanna buy more tees!

Geez.reach home ard 12pm jus now..ytd all of us was out at marina steamboat celebrating our dearest crystal's 18th bday!! happy bday!! wahaha..b4 tt, went to queensway and orchard with nancy,des,drk..we all chipped in money with the rest of the peepz and bought a chocolate gateau cake for her..well it was very delicious anyway..trusted brand called bengawan solo. met up with jinhui,jennifer and angie plus john..when we reach there, jerry and crystal was already waiting there..wahahah how surprising jerry was quite early..normally he'd be late..okok to the steamboat, i tink i kinda lost in my own world of soup drinking..i din notice anything funny except some rather obvious jokes. took many pictures!! yeah great!hahah..i love my camera.the soup was rather tasty, so cant help it rite...then they talk alot of bullshit which i didn paid attention due to the soup i was infatuated with..WAHAHAHA. okok sth's been rather funny but ooh anyway its a freakin secret lahz. wahahahahah its damn fun when u alone noe sth and others dunno..and then u laugh urself even though ppl tot u are mad. wahahahahhah. okkayyss. stayed at nancy's hse and we really talked alot abt men and how sick some are,how pathetic i am, **aheM** and many more lah until we jus went bonkers, giggled, really laughed out loud and dozed off...watched meteor garden..wahhahaha..it jus shows how bored we were..i like stayovers! yeah then remembered my com got worm, so i asked my fren for help..yeah i tink its alrite now since he's my comp doctor...haha..erm, here's out to all of my frens who are taking their results today. Gd luck fer ur results!!!

`isolation momentum from the mortal world.

today went sch do proj discussion.after tt ate with drk and kr b4 heading to weiming hse watch last samurai.damn nice show.i admire their courage and the way they fight so gloriously.the swords, scenery and all tt.very cool.tom cruise,nobutada,katsumoto,ujo,taka blah blah.gd casts.later watch abit of south park and realise its a freakin interesting cartoon.haah.play NFL.impressed i got 17 to 3. geez.eat dinner then go home do proj.which is NOW. except proj, i tink i basically enjoy life like this.

`because they come to destroy what i have come to love.

ok..went to orchard again.walk ard with drk and frens and nancy and crystal later on.heard the strokes and totally nice.feel like buyin.then headed to cafe cartel with yy, drk and crystal in siglap.ate the waffle and potato wedges.yummy.again we laughed alot and took pictures.hahha..nice food anyways.ahhh.dun feel like bloggin.

sat alrite, went orchard with the usual frens.as usual i was quiet at 1st then later talk alot of crap which doesnt make sense at all.walked ard like idiots the whole street down orchard tryin to find a place to chill.at cafe cartel i was so tempted by the waffle.and then becos so late, i talk bullshit and didn feel like eating.nth much i can say here.

Last day of exams. acct can make it, pom cannot make it. studied in sdc and in the end fell aslp for an hr.too tired.went 85 for dinner with some new ppl.nv see b4.fried oyster omelette is great.why is this like tat.arghh.

heyy. today statistics was a shocker on 1st look, it made my heart skipped many many times faster. I stared at it for 10 mins, tryin to figure out how to do. but then, as i did my qns, i managed to sort them. and yes! i tink i noe how lahz..checked ans, pray they are correct man..mayb lose marks on careless mistakes. yea, i put in effort by coming so early to revise with crystal, everything shld be alrite eh? this is the 1st time i came so early cos normally exams i will still be slpin or reading at hme b4 i go sch. eh, quite nice try lahz. so here i am, finished memorising my mbs twice. dunno whether can make it anot tml. god bless me! pls make me remember those stuff i have to...yeah yeah thanks to everyone who wished me gd luck. and btw, same to all those havin exams too!

`3 days left.

Happy vday! yea ytd hang out with crystal and desmond in orchard for the loners' vday..hey, come to tink of tt, it was my 1st vday OUT. yea i really mean OUT, cos no ppl dated me in the past, i nv date anyone too. wahahaa... so i was determined to spend this yr's vday outside no matter what! saw many ppl selling roses and i kept whining why no one gives me..crystal got 68 red roses...wahahha..but anyway so sweet i got a cute black mug from crystal and a nicely wrapped fuschia pink rose from des after psychoing him...hahaha.. tat rose really caught my eye, bright and blooming lohz..but we bought a ferrero rocher stalk for him also..the concept of giving and receiving... ahaha..i enjoyed looking at couples on the streets becos i like it happening. hahah, walked ard aimlessly cos almost all movie tickets were sold out..yeap its nt bad afterall, at least this yr vday not lonely cos can spend with frens rite?!

`love is in their air.

oh alrite, jus came back from my grandpa's bday dinner..he's 80 this yr..haha..the food not bad ah...took some pictures, talk talk...then go home..b4 tt, i was in school alone.. couldnt stand the boredom so i went to look for drk and his frens to watch abit of the school concert thing..hahah actually, the singing wasn't tt gd. yeah man, after tt went to queensway with them for some shoe exhibition..lucky i brought a cam, otherwise i tink i miss out sth real gd. as usual, i can be spotted laughing like some crazy girl. but its nt my fault ok, cos some things they said were atrocious i cant stand it! hahah..later on headed to orchard. walk ard, talk talk...and quite entertaining to hear stupid things..okays, i did spend a happy friday the 13th rather than a lonely one...saw many ppl sellin roses! i wished i had one..

`Gagaga.

today school was very crowded. our open house was really hot, fun-filled, great, and jus fun!! there were many many tents and programmes going on..went to sch for POM jus to realise we came for attendance ONLY. then later went walking ard the school to check it out. music blasting, ppl talkin and shouting...chaotic like wut crystal said. then we walked ard pretending we were newbies goin for the openhse...jus to get tat goodie bag...they really tot we were but we confessed! hahha..we went to engine (quite bored), IT (also bored) and then we headed to design school. wow tat place if filled with ppl who dress very diff. hahah..saw a fren and asked him to bring us ard the school..saw very nice painted chairs! cool. yeah enjoyed myself alot. then went to canteen hang out with drk and his frens while crystal is busy with her things..later on we went to see the light years cast..randall tan looks jus nice, like a guy next door...rosalind very pretty..hahah her figure is good! then later went to help out jani with the brochures...hahah where the HELL is LT 17?! saw and met alot of new ppl...gddie!

`12 feb 2004. one of the best days of school life althou i still feel very lonely!!

i got an email abt zodiac and this is wut it says:

A slim woman who walks with confidence and pride. She has an egg shape facial structure, high and round forehead. She likes to look straight as if she is searching. She is not a pretentious type and will always say what she thinks. You will see Virgo woman walks fast. She will try her best to be perfect, to look perfect and to feel perfect even though there is no such perfection. She is very delicate of what and how she dress. She is bright and easily despaired with obstacles. She likes a smart guy who will be compatible with her, so if you are a rich dumb guy, you can forget about her right now. She is not a very possessive or jealous person for she expect respect from her love one. She does not like a part time lover, or a temporary mate. If she finds her dream man, she will not go away. If she does not like you, she will always keep a certain distant. Act proper and appropriate is her discipline. She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase. She likes a gentleman who open the doors for her. She wants to feel protected and when a man taking care of her, she will feel like a complete woman. She memorizes everything about other people and about herself very well. She can really keep secret, you can trust her on this. She likes a refreshing and mild scent. She is very delicate in maintaining her beauty, so you could see she is seriously picking soap which match and most suit her skin. Do not comment her on this very picky habits, it is her happiness in working full time as a self beautifier. She is not an innocent angel for sometimes she can be as tough as steel. Even when she is easily despaired, she is not the type to cry over it. She is a shy type, so making speech in front of the room can make her nervous even she walks and talks confidently. She only search for true love , not just any love. Her love is an ideal one. She likes to think no one is neater and as effective as her, which can irritate you sometimes for there is no such thing. She likes sweet talk, but she can slip and say something unpredictable and unbearable to you too. When she stops getting mad, she will totally forget what she just said and be an angel again. If you have a date with her , you'd better be there on time. Flowers and sweet word can calm her down. If you want to say sorry , make it brief and straight forward. Do not drag your apologetic words into a long making it up events, it could lead you to another world war. She likes her man to dress nice and clean. She is good in details especially with money. Do not make she thinks that she is a clown or funny. In the beginning of knowing her, please try not to glance at other pretty woman so much. Early period of dating her, try not to hold her so much in public, it would not be a proper thing to do. Criticism woman is her icon including big and small things in life starting from your hair, your dress , and the way you talk.

i noticed some ppl giggle whenever i walk past them...sigh wutever, mustn be anything gd...studied in sch with crystal and drk. ended up eating, studying and eating and talking..later tot wanted to celebrate zhijun's bday..we called everyone and guess wut? we miss out the bday guy. later they went home so me and crystal had to wait for tat "superstar des". we went bedok to eat stingray and the meatball noodles. YUMMY. the balachan stingray was really nice!! hot and spicy! then we talked abt american idol..blah blah..basically din tok much cos i was enjoying the food..hehe after tat went home with crystal..on the bus journey we talked and laughed alot..really funny when we were personifying shit. wahahaha.

`Food, glorious food!

Oh my heart can't carry much more
It's really, really aching and soar
My heart don't care anymore
I really can't bear more
My hands don't work like before
I shiver and I scrape at your door
My heart can't carry much more

But you couldn't care less
Could you
Your face don't look like before
It's really not like yours anymore
Your eyes don't like me no more
They quiver and they shift to the floor
My heart don't beat like before
It's never been this lone
No my blood don't flow anymore

And you couldn't care less
Could you
Could we stop and sleep for a spare
We can turn this stitch into a ware
And send that old devil back to hell
But we don't care do we

Baby let's stop and sleep for a spare
We can turn this stitch into a ware
And send that old devil back to hell
Your back's not straight like before
You really shouldn't care in me no more
I'm much too heavy for you
I'm really quite a mess, yes
We just don't care anymore
We're cricket and were cut to the core
We're just not there anymore
But we really don't care do we
No, we couldn't care less
We couldn't care less
Could we?

- The Cardigans - couldn't care less

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way

You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to

Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets

No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

oh yeah, last thing for today:
to drk's uncle, wish his operation is a success and may god bless him, everything shall be alrite and smooth.
to my family, god bless us too, this yr shall be filled with peace and happiness.
to all my frens out there, find a partner for vday!

hmm..i forgot to bring my disk to lab jus now. i skipped accts lect, went to marcus hse with crystal, chris and joey.. his hse really got new year mood and its rather spacious..high storey summore so if u lose money u can try jumping. i didn really gamble, but they did.. i was watching this show abt vampires, very lame and funny... played abit of mahjong, walked ard and doing nth but watchin tv. wahaha..then later got a quiz for cds.. haha me and xinyi kinda cheated..later on went to 401 meet crystal for dinenr....went to walk in punggol park b4 heading back home to do my tut work..

`i love rock.

tis is gonna be a rather long blog cos many things happen today..its bad though. first thing is today was meant to be a bday celebration for my grandma..so its supposed to be a happy occasion..and then later some1 called to inform tat my mum's uncle died of lung problems.how sad can it be? he smoked his life away...and when he recovered, some virus infected the lungs. nonetheless we decided to go ahead with the dinner...so we took a bus to tamp, when we stood up preparing for alighting, this dumbass cyclist dashed across the road..the bus brake suddenly the 1st to fly forward was my poor mum, then edmund and me. it really hurts ok..my back and my butt!! my mum knocked her head i wonder if its serious cos she refused to go for head scan. god bless us. my sis and dad nth happen cos they were still seated..one small boy had his 3 teeth knocked off..the police came and asked some qns.. in my head everything was glittering white like stars, i felt like vomitting and i cudn't breathe quite normally...i was jus staring at nowhere, i was really really afraid tat i wud jus blackout cos i had a hard time tryin to breathe.i felt like fainting.well well so the police asked if we needed any ambulance and took down particulars and things..sounds like a sec sch compo, its nt. later on, we took a cab down to upper east coast for the dinner..hope my mum doesnt have anything serious with her. after tt i went to meet des, jinhui, his gf, jerry at tamp to slack ard...

`traumatised. WAHAHA.

ok...so today was jus rainy day againnn. well had my POM tut class earlier on and i really liked my tutor. he's confident of wut he's gonna say, clever, funny, lame althou he's old. hahah one of the most interesting tutors i ever met in tp btw. at nite i watched american idol. its very very crude, extremely humiliating and exhilarating, i tell ya. wahah esp simon cowell. altho ppl says he's too straightforward but when he really laughs he's got some charm. oopz. hahah. anyway there's this hongkie called william hung. nt say i am bad or wut.. but he really sings and dance very oddly...

`Idolism: Do you have it?

ytd went 3 places. got many red packets and wished many ppl happy new year. ate many titbits. went home. today went my grandma hse for some gambling session..hahha i played mj and blackjack. supposedly i was playin mj, won very very lil cos we played 5 cents 10 cents... at 1st i was winning in mj cos i sat at my lucky seat, then i play blackjack...i lost quite abit. my sis had to play mj and she needed my help.. haha so i told her half half winnings.we did win and earn some money for us!! Very lucky cos the tiles was extremely good.

`sometimes new year is boring.

today was quite a short lesson for my class..2 hrs of LAB and sch ends! after tt went to orchard with nancy, angie and crystal cos i need a tee! i ended up buyin a bracelet which looks rusty with a heart in the middle...its so nice !! later on took some pics at far east orchard..the pics turn out nice with the background..so no complaints..forgive me ok!!

Uh-huh. so i went fishing and riding bicycles at bedok jetty with some friends...wahaha this is the first time i am at this jetty..the sky there is great cos no clouds and u can see many many stars! Bright and glittering in the dark sky. very beautiful. angie, crystal and me were chatting ard and talking abt some jing BAO thing.. later i looked up into the sky and i saw a shooting star!!!! we waited and waited still no fish! joey's bike crashed onto me!! we ate at the lagoon and went hme nt long later....

`shooting stars**

so i went to school wif a very dreadful pace, trodding my heavy feet along the way.. yeah during POM lecture i was fooling ard with crystal..poor drk and weiming had to sit beside and listen our crap. heheh..:p cant wait to go to sch.. ah i mus stop playing ard now. mus FOCUS on studies, get onto directors' honours list if possible cos then i will get money too..wahahah. STUDY!!!

`school school school

First day of year 2004! Bless me! wow wow ytd was great becos there were pretty fireworks at the esplanade..so many ppl gathered there to embrace the new year and the mood was very joyous and upbeat. everyone was screaming shouting, yelling, talking aloud..we waited and waited, and finally the fireworks appeared at 12. so enthralling, enchanting, bewitching and captivating! after tt we headed down to katong to eat...the stingray is spicy and ultimately gddie! we took many pictures (i am still waiting for idiotic jerry to send). i cant stand him. he's the lamest guy ever existed!he was carrying a can of campbell's clam chowder in his pouch. wahahahha. later we walked all the way to east coast park. ecp was very crowded ytd, there were music thumpings and ppl playing all sorts of things ah. we found some seats and we played a number game. kinda fun and i was the one who keep kana the loser thing. anyway later got some drizzle and we walked again to macdonald's. there it was, so many ppl who dun wanna slp and chose to eat till dawn... and i wondered why its so damn noisy over there... we were rather tired by tat time..we really had a great time...heehhe.

`happy new year!!