Merry Christmas!

met up with des first before meeting the rest at bedok and heading to giant for dinner. watched that 70's show after a long long time since i last saw it on tv. does anyone seriously noe how funny is that?!!! i love the characters in it, and tats hw i first knew who's ashton kutcher. hohoho.

bought some chips and drinks. we played games, play with the dogs, did a movie marathon at hui's house till abt 6am. quite alright and cozy! no need to squeeze outside with the crowd. the dogs damn cute lahhh!!!! makes me feel like having one too.

went to my yishun grandma hse on xmas. on my way home on my uncle's lorry near the seletar airport, the night sky was so clear with the stars splattered all over it. the wind was blowing strong, while listening to Torn. i don't know what was it about that moment of stars, song, wind that made me so emo all of a sudden.

`i wanna watch p.s. i love you!!!
BKK 07








All I Want For Christmas Is You ...

hello i'm back from bkk! had fun with my family even though the clothes over there were quite sucky, alot of winterwear also. i guess its the season thingy :( i only bought 5 tops and mainly miscellaneous like bags, skincare stuff. guys stuff were even worse, not for 21 yrs olds like us. hahaha. wanted to buy things back for the guys but then the stuff weren't nice at all... so came back empty handed for them :(:((( very disappointed with the shopping. but still, its very cheap compared to sg! the first nite i encountered cockroaches in the toilet, so we moved up to the 17th floor which was much better! the hotel was very convenient to many shopping areas +point. breakfast buffet was all right cos i'm sick of it after 3 consecutive days of eating it. bahaha. i love the walking, the exploring, the excitement of people watching and new places. many things we cant see here.

on the overhead bridge there were kids kneeling and begging for money, i felt very sad for them. when we were kids we had many things, our barbie dolls, transformers, hot wheels and polly pockets. and then i think back on the things that they dun have and whats more, begging for money just to eat. it's a sour feeling. we keep talking abt our xmas presents, what we want endlessly, but here there are people who are starving and ask for nothing more other than money and food to keep them going. ashamed, ashamed.

i noe its all about talkin and then reverting back to my old ways. but at certain moments, i tink i shld cut down on my take-it-for-granted attitude. before this post i was going to post a whole load of shit. now i think i will just ask for love and warmth from the people around me and for everybody not to be sad for as much as they think they ought to be.

`all i want for christmas at the end of this post would still be you, whoever you may be, the one till the very very end.
Off to Bangkok.

hello everybody, i'll be away for shopping spree!! in the meantime, you can either get ready my xmas presents, start making practical new year resolutions or miss my presence if u think u do :)

hear from u at dawn.

`pushing aside all stupid problems first

something's been ringing ...

Four-minute rebellion

Three more inches of hair
Is a whole fucking world
Of rebellion.
Happy, happy, I will forget
So many things which are bad
Which leaves me only with good thoughts..

Why are you staring at me?
You're breaking my nose from 25 feet.
Are you really that small?

Talking to you now
Is the easiest thing
In all of fucking hell.
Slowly turning the key,
Am I going or flowing
Out?

Why are you staring at me?
You're breaking my nose from 25 feet.
Are you really that small?

All this day is a beautiful lie..
People say what they will to get by.
All I'm guess into that song
Lucky four minute rebellion

normal(real)-ity

there's so much i wanna say, yet somehow i feel its very hard to put them into mere words. i was watching coffee prince over the weekend, and its really very nice! it was the usual love thing, but there's much more to it, about the art of coffee, love beyond the conventional and agape. gongyoo was so funny, so faithful, so wonderful and so cute. okay i noe its getting kind of whiny. the guys in the show were all damn funny haha and they were really great buddies. life wouldn't be so boring with these ppl ard. well well ...

anyway went to the lawn with drk on tues. nice stuff they have over there. guess will be going back there again for new year clothes! then had late lunch at bedok inter, its been so long since i've eaten there and much better food than i have it over my house area. boohoo~

`counting down to monday
Yellow Mellow

love

lighthearted bickers

breakfast together in the bright sunny morning in the balcony

wrestling

melt-your-heart morning calls

piggybacks

cooking for each other

lying on the benches when sun sets

being an umbrella rain or shine

kicking legs under the table

love-filled hugs

and faith.

`in search of somebody who really knows
the Yays and Nays of life

the year has passed so fast. 1 day 1 day 1 year and another. in weeks to come, we have christmas and then new year's day. the xmas lightings are up and somehow i kinda like the white lights on the trees this year. then it reminds me of white xmas. when will i ever get to spend a white xmas?! i used to remb reading those stories of xmas in Rockefeller centre and the ice-skating rinks. cold weather, sitting by the fireplace, singing along to the tunes of xmas carols. sigh.

ok digressing a little, there's sales everywhere but seems like there's nth much to buy. right after exams i alrd spend money on signing package and whatnots. i'd probably hide the card somewhere inconvenient to take. talkin abt sales there's really long queues especially at those branded preview sales. i wud rather queue for free starbucks coffee. jus today alone i saw like at least 10 bags of the same brand or even designs. i'm not earning money so i cant comment much abt it. but just by looking at the number of ppl toting it ard, it leaves much to be said abt the exclusivity. maybe everyone's getting richer except for me. blahhh blah blah

met up with nancy and crystal after such a long timeee! i tink we will become very whiny when we start working. and seriously crystal i cant wait to see wut becomes of u in a few mths time down the road! wahahah. oh yeah i'll be going bkk for a short trip with my family on the 17th! hope there's loads of stuff to buy back. cant wait cant wait!!

`hoorah-rah
BLAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

exams are finally over. it's been a damn bloody long wait ever since i started revising 3 weeks ago. really really crappy lah! for exams i really stayed home most of the time, onli going out for dinner once a week when mom's not cooking. u may think it's a torture (i think so too), but every second counts! meals are not so impt since i dun feel VERY hungry....

but over these past weeks i've been feelin overwhelmed by the revision and running out of patience for studying. i used to put in every brain juice for my exams but now if i am stuck at any qn i find myself giving up quite easily. EFFORT, where has it gone to?! and now i must embark on a personal journey of reflection with myself ...

`wake up wake up
i've been very busy with projs lately. probably whined too much and slept too little these days. there's always an ending. wellll, sooo relieved to say tt i'm only left with 1 presentation! damn shiok lahhh..

hmm i hope we will all be able to go bkk next yr together for holidays! plus a beach resort hopefully? wahaha.. then hopefully my family going hk mid year or aust end of the year.... ARGH just wanna get out of sg for shopping! hopefully only.

sometimes i dun understand guys. sometimes u noe they're tryin to be funny, u noe they can do without u. just like after they loved, they can continue looking for another. i think like at our age, we girls can sense the intention tt guys are trying to put across. but most of the time we act dumb. not becos we're mean, but cos we wanna avoid any unwanted confrontation. they can use all the nicest sounding adjectives in this world, and get (mis)understood for trying too much. just like letter writing we learn in class, don't use pompous words thinking it wud impress but it doesnt carry the sincerity with it. i guess there's only one person ard who knew exactly wut to say to make me smile.

and tts GINGY!~

`my no. 1 wish is to buy a car when i start work
i cant help but feel resentful towards certain ppl. sometimes i just feel its ok to scorn at them but i realllyyy cannot help it.

First thing i gotta complain abt is the INCREASING number of mothers pushing prams. this is very very fucking irritating. there's no problem with pushing prams u noe. but they push BLINDLY!!!! fucked up retards. and it always happens tt i am somewhere in front of them, waiting to be injured in a few seconds time i tell u. they push push without seeing the fact tt they ARE GOING push the bloody pram onto me and scratch my legs, leaving me wincing in pain while they happily walk away. i mean obviously the pram doesnt have eyes but the mums shld at least spare a thought for ppl walking ard them right?! i hope their babies dun grow up as stupid as them. i noe its damn mean but i cannot help it again.

sigh sometimes be nice get bullied. but yeah i'll still be nice. ok, this video has edison and i din think it was him initially until i saw the comments below. wahaha he's got a funny get-up cos he looks like a homeless beggar. but still nice rapping! abt war.
ever asked urself: are u significant or do u make a difference ?

when u have no idea, that's where it makes a difference. becos people are more often than not don't make u feel that way, not a tiny weenie bit, for what u have done for them.

for all the hard work u've put in, the love u sacrificed for the so-called forever, the blood u bled and "dried up" later, is getting nowhere. just when u have wept ur very last, nobody noes.

the anger u contained in urself, for receiving all this shit u weren't supposed to be getting, the privileges u abnegated, u question urself why are u doing all these. do we really have to face up to the fact that we have choices in life or that life is beyond our control at all?

we ain't rational all the time. we get hurt. we get tired of life and its misery.

but no i'm not tired yet. i noe i hv to do something, sad to say i dunno how, but all i noe is i wanna get out of this place and experience something new!!! :))))

`urgh i miss my eyelash extensions!!!!!
LANTERNS FEST

i tell u i'm damn suay this yr, i wanna buy the raffles choco truffle flavor one its sold out many places. then no choice get marriott, and after tt i went taka they say got stock for raffles one. idiotic can!

fell sick on sat with high fever still gotta go all the way to tamp library to borrow books for my employee mgmt module. really felt like dying. plus on thurs nancy and i went to california fitness to spend 2 fucking hours listening to sales talk abt the plan and only got down to exercising at about 8plus nearing 9. i havent even try out their facilities and u expect me to sign some plans?! crazy shit. i'm not some gullible old woman eh hello! how persistent and FUCKING irritating. but at least managed to burn some insignificant calories.

back to sat, shopped ard orchard with my family, which is like damn long since we did tt. i've always missed the younger times we always go out on weekends to places like parkway, cycling, orchard and many other trips ard sg.

then ytd had project meeting with my groupmates from 10 till 6. really damn tiring ahhh halfway thru i alrd spacing out and reading Glamour. geez. we had steamboat buffet at M hotel after all the tiring discussions. hmm the seafood is very fresh and i kept eating the inoki mushrooms. variety wasn't alot but still its ok! there were also cakes and icecream. my main aim for buffet is always desserts. YUM YUM.

head down to wcp for some lantern fun but we din buy any so began scouting ard for it in holland v. bahah damn tiring ah! in the end we jus give up and picked lanterns off the roads. the playground with the swinging thing damn fun ah! settled down at the far end of the park near the sea and started burning the stuff. and telling horror stories. cant believe we spent more than 12 hrs together. haha. then snapped loads of ugly pics of ourselves. but i'm too lazy to load them up here, its all in facebook :)


`stop short at holidays
TWO-ONE: 21st









Celebrated my 21st

but like any other day, its kinda boring.

not like i wanna make it a hooha out of it, just wanna keep it low and filled with warmth.

first with the girls. they are the best, no seconds! thanks for being there and the "hardships" u girls went thru to get my presents cos i noe i'm very choosy. ooh ks, a big hearty THANK YOU!

then with the group, minus jenn hui and drk, which is very saddening cos no them no fun! also thanks to everybody for the presents and also to jenn for nice wrapping and trips down to buy the stuff! :) really appreciate it.

din take many photos anyway cant really be bothered lahhh. marriott's buffet dinner was nice, though variety was not as much as i tot. but i supposed tts the thing with buffet now, unless u wanna compromise quality for variety which i'd rather not. their cakes were superb!!

lastly with the family. collect collect bahaha

`get over with it
WE'RE SO overdue..

so blue, but we can't help it
From really nonsensical acts..

to our better selves.




UPDATES.. MY DAYS

heyyy. it's been a long while. was quite busy with school stuff recently and thinking hard on the bday stuff. so in the end i choose to celebrate it separately cos it will be easier for me too. Jenn and Hui is in the land of OZ now, i'm so envious! wonder wut stuff they will bring back from there lol.. i hope they can find the gingerbread man soft toy. bahaha.. i've been lemming for it since dunno when.

sch's been more fun this sem with the group, we're always talkin & laughing so much. life in sch wud be soooo boring w/o them. REAL perks. but wut i detest most is the tutorials and my mini ppt on thurs. feeling really dreadful right now cos i'm afraid i'll jus screw up at the most critical moment. u noe things start whirling ard, hands trembling and then if i lose my train of thoughts, basically u can see the changed look on my face: fucked up.

and then it comes to a conclusion that life really kinda goes downhill without a proper bf. now my biggest wish of the millenium (though its long over) will be to find a love/companion. very corny but yes! i'd rather pepper my life with endless bickers and sweet talks than to live it the quiet peaceful way it is now. but of course tt doesnt mean i'm jus gonna be with anyone who's there u see. occasionally i'll still miss the boy very much even if he doesn't come first to my mind now whenever i'm in distress. tats a great leap forward i guess, after so long. anyway its just memories lahh.

ohh yeah i will be going for eyelash extension this coming tues, i really really hope it will turn out nice! wah really saves all the trouble of piling on mascaras and then spend time removing it again at the end of the day. YIPPEE, it suddenly sounds like i've got something new to do.

'7 days more to go
LET-DOWNERS

i just dun like ppl who promise to do sth then later on "forget" about it becos they got sth more impt to do or nv even tell u so. i'm quite sick of all these thing especially when people say 1 thing and then do another. its so irritating, especially when frens do tat. always waste my time eh... if got other fucking priorities then just go ahead ah dun pretend to be nice and try to balance when all u're gonna do is to waste ur frens' time. it doesn't hurt to say no riteee... erhh but wut to do, friends only so i cannot complain too much.

i am a very nice girl.

'bollocks
FLEA-fleeing

went zouk flea with drk, adeline and kr.. it was raining and i really dread being out on the streets on such days. anyway there were some pretty stuff but i wasnt able to afford them or they were obviously over-priced. so i ended up with just 1 gold skull pendant.. met up with yilin and raymond later and all of us squeezed into the car and headed to gwc. we went to this shop "iwannagohome" sth like tt.. ok they have really nice home furniture and kitchen glassware. i've decided: next time my house mus deco nice and classy!

`rule no. 1: it sucks to go home empty-handed! so no matter what, must buy sth.....
TOLERANCE is.... a virtue, yes?

sch's started a week already.. its still a turn-off becos i really love sleeping. met up with the group on sat for dinner and movie! we ate at sakae sushi in heeren.. their sushi was nice with the light sauce but the service was terribly slow.. we chat and waited and waited.. and they served us wrong dishes along the way. ok the food was quite satisfying and lucky the sushi din cause me gastric pain! bahaha.. so we hang out ard while waiting for jerry to fetch his car.. the bourne ultimatum was okok, i find like he's just like john mcclane in die hard. no matter how they fall/get beaten/shot, they wun die.

on my way to town, i met this 2 gay-looking guys. 1 of them obviously got no brain or any initiative to actually say excuse me and kept hovering left right up down on the fucking escalator. and i was kinda pissed off becos i really dunno wut he was trying to do when everyone's keep left and i made a tsk. so when he looked behind to mouth "bitch" to his gay fren at the back, then i realized the meaning behind his nonsensical actions. i dun understand why he cant open his fucking mouth. upon reaching the landing he stood aside and called me a cheena girl in a "i-dun-have-testosterone-in-me" kind of voice. not once but TWICE. anyway i dun wish to argue with him so i jus stared at him and walked off. or maybe i shld just tell him to act like a man and dun be such sissy. cant he stand being 1 second away from his fren or sth?! not like he's some lost stupid sheep/shit, and its not as if he's not cheena looking. we're all CHINESE hello! i would be at least feeling alrite to be called cheena if he wasn't one. but he was wayyyy too sissy to waste my time trying to talk to him. he really spoils the image of a man: no courtesy, no initiative, no gentleman streak in him and NO BRAIN! dick(less)head.

Thursday...

met up with nancy and crystal for dinner at PS.. had classes till 6, which was really super boring. after eating we walked ard abit then decided to go ben & jerry to chill and eat ice-cream. i ordered "phish food" which was chocolate with gooey marshmellow and little cow chocos. DAMN cute and nice ah!! i really liked the cosy seats and cushion! we ended up taking stupid pics and talking crap.

Wednesday...

worked today. for money i will try to persevere. haha.. before i got home, i went to the supermarket to stock up on snacks to replace my lunch in sch. i end up buying the haitai biscuits, a box of 4 meiji choco yan yans and tim tam love chocolate mud or wutever. HOORAY to eating in the lecture hall! really keeps me awake.
WRING THOSE WISHES...

hello everybody. it is officially 1 month more to my birthday. hate the fact tt i'm gonna be older or the same as everyone else around me, but i know it's inevitable and i will accept it. so for u guys to know what i'm thinking of to know what u guys know what i know. hmm if u wanna noe the price of the items, can ask me! i've also added links to some of the items in case u're not sure wut they are.. but i guess most are within the budget if u're sharing it.. hahahaah.. ok its all listed in order of importance!! here goes:

WISHLIST 21

1. Cold hard cash (to contribute to my ever-depreciating funds)
2. Dior Diorissime D de Dior Ready-to-wear Makeup Clutch for Eyes & Lips in 001 Daylight Madonna
3. Shiseido Maquillage sparkle contrast eyes in GY851 (monotones)
4. Molten Browner (cloth curls) (molten brown counter in Tangs)
5. Zara black skinny jeans in euro 38
6. Verona Feldbusch Fame rose/azur/apricot in size 39
7. Dior lipgloss in preferably nude-y to peachy pink color type
8. Shrek Kubrick Set A (can get from yahoo sg auctions!)
9. Gold Havaianas flip flops and the strap is thinner. size 37-38 tehehe.
10. Topshop vouchers
11. Benefit blusher
12. PSP
13. Vera Wang Perfume original
14. Gingerbread man soft toy from Target au/universal studios
15. Creative zen vision:m

by the way point 3&4 are a tie. i really cant make up my mind between the 2.. brrr i will update the list if there's more to come.. teehehe.

NEWLY-add-ons... not in order

16. Junk Food Pinocchio black tee in S/M (Jenn will noe! wahaha)
17. Black/Gold gladiator or t-bar sandals with bling blings
18. Gold bangles with designs of some sort. such as this!
19. Big black tote bag for school, can be from agnes b or other brands but no fareast type of bags

tsk i tink i am very choosy!

`yoohooooo~
TARTAN-zans
good day everybody, except for me. been having very hard-to-sleep nights recently and its taking a toll on me. kind of. i wake up with a very short-circuit temper every morning, pouring cereals + milk and chomping on them, and stare at the comp for the rest of my days. literally wasting my time away.
so i met up with nancy and crystal for some hunting at city plaza. saw a few nice tops, unfortunately, i have no $$.. plus i jus bought a top from topshop days ago. i'm trying hard to manage my finances. hahah i've decided to earn money in future and get a financial planner to invest and grow my wealth.. bahaha but i'm still far from being employed yet.
the prices over at city plaza aint dirt cheap after scouting ard. so after like 2 hrs we got out of there and headed to town. then we were talking bullshit on the bus but it was fun! hahaha. we hardly get together on weekends, so this was really rare.. met up with the group later and had dinner at din tai fung.. the bill was perfect at $100. weeet. and then after dinner there was nth to do. yawns~~
sometimes i'm envious of ppl who hv better weekends than me. issit becos they have the money, or many frens, or wutever? OR maybe i am boring. urgh. i dunno how sg can get tops in the nightlife thingy really. besides clubbing and eating at nite, is THERE anything else we can do? we're not tourists! but sometimes i tink its inevitable cos afterall, there must be sth that we can do just tt its our choice, and perhaps nothing beats chilling at home. i look forward...

you are captured on screen

`one day u might know me better
HONEY SEE-REALS
with ur favorite strawberry bits ...

`this is my breakfast every morning. say hello!

好无聊。。。

weeks after i've been back, it's been very very monotonous. everyday i'm at home, but wuts going on? i can tell u nothing. weekends used to be hanging out shopping in town, then they became just dinners and movies, now have dwindled to chilling/sleeping at home. sheesh!~~ now, this is the ultimate meaning of no life! either sg is boring or we are boring ppl.

these few days i dreamt of some funny things, like being in a love with someone younger, drowning in a sliding pool and eating dinner in a hotel along the orchard road stretch with my sis with the bill coming up to 400 but we onli paid 80 i dunno why. really nicee.

went to compass point with family. my parents were buying new handphones for themselves so i tot it wud be better if i head to the supermarket to buy some groceries for this week's "alone at home afternoons". i ended up buying instant carbonara pasta, POST strawberry honey cereals, nestle honey cornflakes, milk and the japanese seaweed sesame bits with salt to accompany any boring rice "moments". teehee. i really love to shop, even for groceries!

i'm very excited becos i have food to last me in the afternoons while busying myself with the stupid bidding system over the new few days.

`i wan a pda phone!
HK TRIP 07: FINALE

here's some short takes on wut i've bought during the trip... teehehe

skincare stuff
H&M, junkfood lookalikes, dresses and uniqlo babydoll
shoes, uniqlo tees for the guys, some knickknacks, stuff for family
last but not least, KRISPYKREME!
bought a dozen to share them off with family and frens

`all in all, i love my buys!
HK TRIP 07: PART III

Day 4: 17 July 07 Tue (Last day....)

our hostel room is very small but clean
while waiting for the airport transfer bus, we got this cute california fitness guy to take a pic for us! bahaha..
our krispykremes to be delivered back home, by us!we tot we were eating claypot mushroom ramen noodle, but this was wut it turned out to be. jitao like tio pian! big difference from the description EH HELLO!a sneak peek of the stuff i've bought
we were very sad and kinda quiet on the last day.. cos its time to leave HK.. tt kinda feeling is superduper dreadful as always. once we return, we all have to fall back to our usual places, that is work for nancy and more slacking for me till sch reopens. 4 days so fast over, but nevertheless, we did maximize our time there by shopping and stopping for meal breaks! i got to try the krispykreme, hui lau shan, cha chan ting's breakfast and H&M. i guess i'm happy (over) and done with!

on the last day, nancy and i walked ard mongkok area and back to argyle centre. i had the black pepper chicken at kfc and it really was yucky cos its not salty and very oily. but i ate for the purpose of getting the milk bearbrick. haha.. later on we headed back to hostel for some msn. somehow i felt really reluctant to go back home but then i was also very excited to bring back wut i've bought! lol.. anyway we dragged our stupid bulky luggage all the way to the bus stop. REALLY wanna die.

`i miss shopping in hk!!!!!
HK TRIP 07: PART II

Day 3: 16 July Mon
along nathan road
mido cafe which desmond introby the time we found it, it was noon already.. no choice but eat lunch! the servings were big though.. so we shared! the fried rice very niceeeee..

egg n luncheon rice
fried rice




dreyer's advert in the mtr station.. my favorite rocky road ice cream with marshmellows!!

the ads were so cute
we are on sick leave... for shopping!!!

at krispykreme's cafe for a break...

the fruity peach donut was very fresh and delicious choco! the ice lemon tea was nice too.
my spaghetti bolognaise for dinner at dai ga lok
pardon me for being so crazy with krispykreme, partly cos i've nv tasted it before and its really damn nice! not those usual bread-dy feelin.. tee hehe. we went over to central for H&M!!! been waiting and waiting for this day to come! din take a pic of the building cos its really damn hot and we were too into grabbing wut we want first. it was just afternoon and there were ALOT of ppl in the store. its like they dunnid to work! even topshop will onli see this kinda crowd during weekends, not on a monday aft.. din really see the summer clothes i saw online, perhaps now they are bringing in the newer season stuff.. but i still manage to cop a purple bag and a tunic! so happy! and cheap summore... sg's topshop is really too overpriced though its decent stuff. but i feel kinda fucked up tt prices keep increasing back here and maybe tts why u hardly see sg promoting herself as some great shopping paradise and instead being uniquely singapore, when we all noe over in HK things are much cheaper!! tsk tsk...

hmm we din shop much for today cos of the overshot of budget ytd.. damn sad can.. its our 2nd last day in HK. sigh so fast.. but nonetheless we were very happy with our buys. and i still overshot my budget today. our mentality is wanna buy JUST buy.. onli those more exp, we will spend more time thinking. zara sales i guess was much better than in sg cos those dresses were still available in so many sizes.. and very cheap! not like in sg those nice stuff already snapped up. hahaha.. ytd at uniqlo, i onli bought a babydoll basic top, damn regret nv buy the skinny jeans so cheap!! urgh wut was i thinking.. :(

itinerary for the day: Yau ma tei, temple st, causeway bay, central, zara, argyle centre (again).

`things u regret buying on impulse and those that u nv buy = chwee