They say when you're out of love, you're like a stray dog. Some kind soul decides to take you in, but later you find that you can't adapt to the new place and you decide to leave again to search for ur ideal home...

Finally i'm getting into uni, which is sth i am still quite surprised looking at my ability and tardiness. but hey tts becos i do things when i'm supposed to! my dad always say i'm so lazy and he's sick lookin at the untidy table, bed and floor splattered with endless of things. yes one day i will pack it, only when i feel like it. BUT, i really put in effort in poly to study and do my projects well, i am definitely not going to let anyone or myself down cos the feeling sucks. i studied cos i had my motivation when i'm with him to do well together, for us to do well in studies was very important. we strived hard, we stayed over together to rush our stuff. it was really fun times, to me, despite the stress we got. nothing can ever be better.

I guess its time to go back to blogging after such a long break. i still feel crappy now and then but i've learnt to hide it beneath my urh happy face. if i keep showing my sad face 365 days, i am letting myself down and to life. somehow it seems to be working, i don't want ppl to tink i'm such an emo person for the past 1 year of my life. Unimaginable. so i try to be happy and i am, jus tat sadness is always more overpowering than anything thing else for me. happy this second, depressed next second, and it jus goes on and on and on.

So for uni, its quite interesting yet tiring to plan and bid for my modules. i swear it is one of the toughest mind games u've ever come across. lucky i pass my qet which means i hv lesser burden. i don't show my level of english here o.O now i understand the need for a contingency PLAN, if u dun wanna get frantic about losing a bid for ur modules and start mind-whirling about thinking wuts the next step u shld do in order to secure urself sth. BACK UP BACK UP! Its great we get to plan OTOT but its really a headache to plan. but hey, we all learn something out of something. its nv useless. I din manage to get all that i wanted but i'm gonna try again in round 2A this morning. sounds like some boxing match, i pay more money i get to whack u and i win.

Back from HK trip 06, it was really fun goin with the usual people, stayin in causeway bay, looking out to the highrise on the hill top, eating maggi mee every supper, bathing and waiting, shopping, disneyland was great too, jus tat we went late, we missed out certain good shit in HK, but i'm glad at least i've experienced it before. it was really fun eating at cafe de coral, cheap and good. but basically SHOPPING AND SHOPPING. and the hui lau shan's mango drink. went back to certain places we've been before, the images flashed back, i turned around i imagined it was him with me but no. i still tink of how sad we were sitting outside intercontinental hotel, facing the harbour, feeling very sad about leaving the wonderful place last year. it was tt windy night, our batteries ran out, the uncle pushed his squeaky cart of drinks and flowers, along the quiet avenue of stars. i almost cried. i really hated to leave. in the plane back i tot of him and i couldn't sleep at all.

Anyway, it was quite a rewarding trip even though i deeply regret not bringing more money. i could have bought more stuff back. nvm i will be going back hk again next summer, by then i shld be more prepared aight? hehe. i've shopped and spent alot since the breakup, i supposed doing so made me feel better and it really did. so far in abt 4 mths, i have spent more than 1000 bucks on clothes, face and food. this is really a serious problem. i dun earn enough, but i spend like mad. i wan to earn my own keeps, i work hard for money till i juggled 3 jobs at a go, jus to find myself handing the cash over to the smiling cashier.

recently watched pirates of the carribean and hard candy. both was nice, not lame at all. though the latter was super sick, it made me cringe. haha. and for POC2, johnny depp's acting was really superb, i like! yesterday we were supposed to watch fireworks, but i was late and thus missed it. sigh but heard it wasn't very nice either. so it wasnt very regretful.. we went to zouk to watch dj shadow's performance, it was really great. the crowd was nice, except for some stupid retards, it jus shows that looks ain't everything, u have to be a little more street smart or common sense. if u tink u look good and u dress so awfully nice, u might have to tink twice whether or not u get tat 2nd appraising look from others. my toes are downtrodden, i have a bruise on my hand i wonder who did that when they are passing by. shit.

and then this afternoon i wake up i planned my timetable, with many backup plans in mind. RELOAD.

`i hope he's happy and healthy everyday.