where's my sam shik?

sch's started a week ago, i cant wait for tutorials cos at least there's a reason to talk compared to lectures. i'm quite stressed actually for a particular sub cos he said he gonna assume no prior knowledge, ok fine. But what i feel is tt i am lucky to hv taken it before as i don't tink the stuff he explains can go across to those who nv learn it before. even i was abit wavered. geez. and one more thing, i totally hate the bidding and balloting system.

u noe, i'm starting to try to be alil more independent than i was in poly, where i relied on frens to update me abt lect notes being posted already blah blah.. haha. i seriously hv to learn to do things on my own! hmmph.

nowadays gst is rather high, i've realised i din officially bought clothings from a PHYSICAL store for like a month or so? now the trend is ONLINE SHOPPING! Jenn and me are sort of crazy over the sprees. hahah. money is very hard to earn, yet i can't control the spendthrift streak in me nowadays. like i said, shopping makes me feel happier but i jus wanna live life this way. my aunt was saying, we don't noe when we're gonna die, so this becomes our valid reason why we shld start spending some cash now rather than bringing it along into the coffin.

and so, life's always gotta have some entertainment like watching tv dramas and animes. recently i was watching this korean drama, i felt like i was so in love with the cute guy in the show. partly it was, but i thought for quite awhile i realised that i was in love with the way the portrayal of love in retrospect of life. sometimes i wish for it to happen right before me, sometimes i look back in life everytime the actress said something meaningful, it felt so truthful. i wan to live a truthful life, being honest abt my own feelings, being able to be myself, to be loved for being real, to laugh it out loud and to view life in a grown-up manner.

but afterall it is just a show that reminded me of the kind of things that will onli happen in the dreams. how true is it? how realistic is it? it may not be. we all look for parts of ourselves in shows, we relate to the characters in it, we feel the same way as they do, it is but a show?