once u said: "our love is like a cup of coffee"

i've once felt hope, i've once gave love. and now i am left with nothing to hold onto. i dreamt a nightmare of a requited love, and it left me feeling so painful in my heart becos it was only a dream. all i knew was i love him still. so much so much. tat day i cried after a big quarrel with my parents. i was jus crying but then it turned out half of it i was crying becos i missed him a whole lot. wut am i gonna do.

anyway, i have to say i really really hate school now. with so many projects, and without say, weird freaks popping ard, it sucks big time. from now on, i am jus going to look forward to fridays and weekends, when i can have a good rest and CHILL. met up with crystal and nancy on fri for dinner at chomp chomp. great food great fun! then we had dessert at happy daze, omg there was a super cute guyyy! so we had alot of stupid laughs playing scrabble and i am the ultimate winnerrrr!! i cant believe scrabble can be such fun hahaa. the ice cream choc hot fudge brownie was super nice and fantasticccc. i need a break ah!

i think nowadays i see people lovey dovey, it kinda makes me abit pissed. i dun wanna hear abt anyone trying to pride their love on the shelves cos it pisses me off too. haha though it sounds senseless for me at 20 to say this, i really envy them. it makes me yearn for love for hugs for little acts of affection. however again, these kinda things cant be rushed. its correct we dun have all the time in the world, but if i choose to be in a relationship, i wan it to be a truly love-filled one, to be loved and love someone together. perhaps now its almost impossible to find a love that lasts. somehow, love is losing its lustre, i'm losing faith, even love, cant keep its promise.

but but!! it always seem to irk me on weekends, there's so many places i wanna go but i have no one! on the bus, i often tot "why am i sitting alone".. its quite sad when there's so many things that i wanna do together with someone but the reality is that i havent found that someone who's willing to do all these with me. pek chek is the word.

the kinds of people i really hate/abhor/dislike/loathe:
1) those who dunno wut it means by my "office hours" are over
2) those who cant set their priorities straight
3) those who are fake
4) bimbos
5) drivers who are super slow and make the bus a hot one
6) wasting time ppl
7) ppl who cant make decisions themselves
8) girls who like to boast their SOs buy this and that for them (wtf!)
9) ppl who depend too heavily on others (like some ferns)
10) those ppl in tat particular student club (F.0.s)
11) insensitive and too ego maniac
12) desperados
13) voyeurs
14) ppl who speak incoherently/cant speak proper english

with such a long list, i wonder how many times a day i will get irritated and pissed off.

`your love is sweet misery