holla holla. finally i can have a breather with 1 last proj to go!
















jerry's super adorable dog HAHA


certainly, shopping is very important to me. so these are the things i bought recently:

lulu's gray star tunic

pirates tee. (impulse buy)

and for my winter wear i wonder what to get, really.

fireworks 06 (wasnt very spectacular)

will be heading down to vivo to buy some winter clothings! sigh there's still a few clothes i bought but not worn before. i buy and buy, but dun mistake me for being a materialistic girl.

`i'm not your material girl

once u said: "our love is like a cup of coffee"

i've once felt hope, i've once gave love. and now i am left with nothing to hold onto. i dreamt a nightmare of a requited love, and it left me feeling so painful in my heart becos it was only a dream. all i knew was i love him still. so much so much. tat day i cried after a big quarrel with my parents. i was jus crying but then it turned out half of it i was crying becos i missed him a whole lot. wut am i gonna do.

anyway, i have to say i really really hate school now. with so many projects, and without say, weird freaks popping ard, it sucks big time. from now on, i am jus going to look forward to fridays and weekends, when i can have a good rest and CHILL. met up with crystal and nancy on fri for dinner at chomp chomp. great food great fun! then we had dessert at happy daze, omg there was a super cute guyyy! so we had alot of stupid laughs playing scrabble and i am the ultimate winnerrrr!! i cant believe scrabble can be such fun hahaa. the ice cream choc hot fudge brownie was super nice and fantasticccc. i need a break ah!

i think nowadays i see people lovey dovey, it kinda makes me abit pissed. i dun wanna hear abt anyone trying to pride their love on the shelves cos it pisses me off too. haha though it sounds senseless for me at 20 to say this, i really envy them. it makes me yearn for love for hugs for little acts of affection. however again, these kinda things cant be rushed. its correct we dun have all the time in the world, but if i choose to be in a relationship, i wan it to be a truly love-filled one, to be loved and love someone together. perhaps now its almost impossible to find a love that lasts. somehow, love is losing its lustre, i'm losing faith, even love, cant keep its promise.

but but!! it always seem to irk me on weekends, there's so many places i wanna go but i have no one! on the bus, i often tot "why am i sitting alone".. its quite sad when there's so many things that i wanna do together with someone but the reality is that i havent found that someone who's willing to do all these with me. pek chek is the word.

the kinds of people i really hate/abhor/dislike/loathe:
1) those who dunno wut it means by my "office hours" are over
2) those who cant set their priorities straight
3) those who are fake
4) bimbos
5) drivers who are super slow and make the bus a hot one
6) wasting time ppl
7) ppl who cant make decisions themselves
8) girls who like to boast their SOs buy this and that for them (wtf!)
9) ppl who depend too heavily on others (like some ferns)
10) those ppl in tat particular student club (F.0.s)
11) insensitive and too ego maniac
12) desperados
13) voyeurs
14) ppl who speak incoherently/cant speak proper english

with such a long list, i wonder how many times a day i will get irritated and pissed off.

`your love is sweet misery

Once again, a new blogskin! I guess black suits me more than anything else. Plus, i am fickle-minded sometimes regarding this kinda things. So, i jus go along with wut i feel like doing. It is kinda crazy sch seems so busy. I have a few but VERY taxing proj/assignments tat are due in the next 2 weeks. sigh, now i realise how easy life was in poly. if u tot poly was busy, then i'm sure u would hv problems coping in uni. tt is me! but right now, i'm trying my best to juggle my stuff, i hope things are gonna turn out okay. afterall i am adaptable! it will be OKAY~ jus tt i lose patience very easily over small things, so peeps pardon me if the way i talk is kinda rude..

feeling headache. haze is not doing us good, somehow i feel tat something shld be done rather than to let us breathe the smoke in rite! and then i imagined ppl walking with masks on their faces. imagine hello kitty, tofu, mickey mouse masks all surface on the market. i think i will get one. went to get my xiaomei spree grey jacket, it looks not bad except for some threads fraying from the buttons. overall i'm satisfied!

i last bought a pair of zara skinny jeans. NICE color and cutting, unlike topshop one which emphasized my big butt. currently into my 2nd week of non-shopping period, i feel quite lacking somewhere but well, all for my 16 days trip to china, and here comes saving time for my debts too. i'll be going with my family, i'm onli very excited abt shopping in shanghai and beijing. the scenery walking, will be just hanging ard looking at beautiful places, will still be good for my mind. hoho. i missed going there twice, cos at tt time, nth was more impt than being with the one i love, even in sg. so well, now i finally had the chance to go, i hope i can buy alot of things! and also get to see the world now.. i wanna go to many places, especially to europe or america. i wanna go to camden market, take the london eye, visit the Big Ben, take a walk down the streets in manhattan, go suntanning at their local beaches. how nice will it be! of cos i will also like to go to japan, look at their palaces and temples, to korea shopping districts and maybe get to see a TV star... OMG!

now i'm having second thoughts abt my course. i love business mods but somehow recently i keep thinking of a magazine job, like being able to write features and stuff. now i'm not sure if its relevant at all. but anyway, there isn't only one road in the world. lately its sorta getting numb, but i still feel sad occasionally, i still dream of love, and i still worry.. about many things.

`i believe i will stand up

today is sentosa day! met up with nancy and went PS to buy snacks and mat.. super heavy stuff we were carrying. i tink we look like refugees in some sort. haha.. then ate the famous chicken rice at seah im. again, it reminds me of the new year eve i spent with love.. anyway, the chicken rice was yummy and we headed to sentosa palawan beach..

we took some time getting ready and as usual, things nv go smoothly without hiccups. the stupid lockers weren't working and it was sooo troublesome walking up and down to get coins. bloody hell. the last time i came here was soo damn long ago, i felt the change was wonderful! with the water-sprouting pool area, it is so cool to jus step in and sit down. haha. and i felt the beach was somehow cleaner than before..

the sun was hot, and its really great tt nancy bought the cold drink and wet tissues!! haha.. on hot days like this, wet tissues work wonders. hmm. then an old kazakhistan (nt sure spelt correctly) guy chatted with nancy while i pretend to erm slp. i felt bad abt this, but wahha i seriously dunno how to deal with it.. other than asking nancy to pretend slping too. hiak hiak.

we suntanned till 4 or 5 plus then went to bathe. i love the shower room!! the water is soooo cooling and ABUNDANT. now tts value for money. after tt, we walked ard the newly opened vivocity. it was a very big big place, with VERY little places for eating. every eatery was soo bloody crowded with queues. we were thinking we wud hv fainted before eating. hahah. anyway we ate at carl's junior. my first time eating their burgers. i ordered santa fe which was not bad with the cheese and yummy chicken meat. i really wanted to order the bacon cheese one, but then i tot of FATS! :(

we window-shopped around, i spotted a gap wool jacket and f21 empire top which i really love. but then, BUDGET BUDGET! so sad.. hmm ok its been so long since nancy and me spend such a long day together and stay over! anyway it was really fun and i hope for it again~ tomorrow making banana muffinsss.. psst nancy: where's the pics? hehe..

ytd we met up with jerry for dinner at 85. i love bak chor mee and stingray and ah balling!!! and i met mr ocs. sigh sigh so cutee and tanned. then we went to jerry's place to play with sydney AHHAHA.. and we realise a disgusting truth abt dogs and their dicks. hurhur. but the dog was super cute.

`everyday i wish for u

it is the mid-autumn festival aka lantern fest today! i'm meeting crystal for dinner and then heading to punggol park to have some fun with sparkles and candles. hoho. too bad nancy cant make it.. anyway sitting at the park reminds me of the days in poly yr 1 & 2. those free days, we have nth much to worry abt, or if not i will be whining or crying to the girls whenever there's love problems, or jus sitting there enjoying the view hehe. it was just wonderful, u noe certain things in life we cud nv have it back, and we cud onli sit down and feel regretful abt the times we din grab hold of tightly. just letting it slip away and away like, sand in our hands.

a whiff of nostalgia.

i had a great time; lighting candles and playing with sparkles cos its been so long since i last done it. seeing all the young schoolgirls playing ard made us feel older. in fact much older than i ever tot of. visualise us shouting loud and running around well, 5 or 6 years go. haha.. in retrospect, i realise i had so many things that i did not hv the courage to do at the correct times. it is really depressing, but this is life..

` i miss you